her craps.

2010-03-10T01:18:00.002+08:00

Today,I watched Alice in the wonderland 3D.Somehow I thought it was overrated totally for its effects.Perhaps,too many good critics somehow made me had very high expectations like avatar,but well,it's just not what I expected.haha,but not to say,it was quite a interesting experience as it's my first 3D movie! Woah pls!

Alright, I feel soodd wearing the specs seriously,cause 1 side is blue the other side is red.The spec is not foldable at all,and somehow i just dont really enjoy the experience of wearing 2 specs! Ahh, I'm sucha a complain bug here,but then i kinda liked how amazing johnny depp makeup is in the movie.Haha!

okay,come to think of it,I'm going to start my attachment soon.Well,Goodbye 6 months of freedom and extra income.(MFM)Apparently, I didn't really enjoy my last day in MFM, haha,people want sabo me, go ahead lah. I'm just so glad I'm not gonna see you for 6 months,what a huge relieve without seeing a skinny bimbotic idiot bitching behind my back, acting as though a holy innocent,like a piece of shite! LOL, alright, I'm seriously bitching over here about that skinny bimbotic idiot. Forget about that idiot!

Talking about attachment,I'm starting on wed,so it's like good,great? OMG,I don't know how to go there yet,God,bless me with luck.

I shall end here.

2010-01-27T09:48:00.003+08:00

Okay,today there had been some major serious jams on the roads due to malfunction of the traffic lights.Look! There traffic lights i caught,damn,had a major jam on road!

Mind you,I'm kidding!WAHHAHA

2010-01-27T09:48:00.001+08:00

Okay,today there had been some major serious jams on the roads due to malfunction of the traffic lights.Look! There traffic lights i caught,damn,had a major jam on road!

Mind you,I'm kidding!WAHHAHA

2010-01-22T11:48:00.001+08:00

Today,Singapore has haze!
This is a picture I caught in Sentosa.

Tadah! I used it for fireworks and made this effect.Super LOL!

2010-01-20T18:02:00.001+08:00

Hi all,

I'll be posting over here soon.Once I'm done with all those emo emo stuff I'm having now.

Last but not least, thanks for the memories.

2009-05-09T00:14:00.002+08:00

Goodbye to this beloved blog which i've been updating for 2 years.I've moved to something better :D Shan't tell you guys here!It's the 447th post!GOSH!

Ask me for the web address itself,SHOO KAYPOS!

2009-05-07T22:23:00.002+08:00

I don't know how you're feeling.And i really do hope you get hold of yourself,and for once think.

Think:What's in life you have accomplished?What more do you want to accomplish?What do you live for? etc,there are many questions to you,and only YOU who knows the answers more than I do.

That's all i can guide you to do :D MAy god bless.Amen.

2009-05-07T09:32:00.001+08:00

I miss these dudes!I miss my northlight kids!NExt Week~

2009-05-06T23:02:00.001+08:00

I'm much pretty excited about my coming holidays schedule!

On the 8th June i'll be helping for the Orientation thing,i guess?
15th-19th June SNCO Course
21 june Singapore International Water Festival

As for ATC,I need to depend on which day northlight is going.Maybe helping for others if i'm free too?

Ok,i've been coping my modules fairly well,well that seems like i need to study more throughly!Oh,and i decided to join the Student Union,now just waiting for tomorrow's interview.Hope it won't be that long :S.Ok,serveral projects coming along!MAke my head big ah! 2 for environmenal and safety mgmt,1 for shipping practic,1 for ideas.

AHHH!I want to watch Angels and Demons!GOsh~!Oh yeah,and i suddenly got the urge to excercise,anyone up for it?Including going to gyms for workout etc?Need to rest early ah,else i'll be coughing and sick once again.Byes~~

Countdown 19 more days!

2009-04-27T10:45:00.002+08:00

HAHA!I'm bored uh.And i'm BROKE!

2009-04-25T23:05:00.001+08:00

If it is meant to be,i won't see you.Goodbye.
If i get to see you again,i shall bid you a proper goodbye.
thanks.

2009-04-23T13:35:00.006+08:00

Ok.Oscar seriously a really great success!Yay!Nearing to the end,something happen.And i thought wen hao was angry with me.Somehow could sense it,i don't know why but yeah..

OHOH!and i didn't sleep that night due to mosquito attack!SUper $#@#$%^%^&%!Unlike the guys slept peacefully inside their tent.So,the ladies just walked around and chat around,while waiting for the sun to rise.And we had supper cum breakfast in the middle of the night.Super LOL.Ok,now i'm missing the times that we would me on sundays for recce,meeting till somehow late night @ times,and doing the stuffs last min :D I love the people too,you guys make a wonderful team,regardless of station masters or what!

After Oscar went to Xuemin's bbq,and i was super uber touched that she actually saved 1 stingyray for me,with sambal chilli!Though i didn't give her present on the chalet,which is kinda obvious i haven't finish preparing my gifts.She'll received it on her birthday :D,so don't scared eh! *I want my present de horrrrrr,xuemin get what i mean?HAHAAHAH![don't be like someone,when birthday reaching give us present!]HAHA!oh yea!and she's understanding that i would be kinda like late and exhuasted,especially after the last min thing crops up.gosh!

School was like more fun and better than Sec school!I hate Lin Xiao Ying!Ok,i miss Ms See.Seriosuly,if my form teacher is Ms See,i guess i would buck up rather than slump around for Sec 3 &4.Seriously,i owe Ms See a lot.She did a lot of things for me behind,and I didn't know how to appreciate her efforts.Especially for my english,i'm glad that our efforts paid off!thank you!

ok,back.School was normal!I hate tuesday eh!Class end like 5.3o.But i heart friday!Casual friday plus i can go back as early as like 1.30pm!whees~!Everyday i would have breakfast!nice eh?haha!ok.

On tues class ended early for this week only.Mainly it's just introduction between the class,lecturers and modules.I love business stat's!kinda fun!EconS!Whees~~So,wednesday we had this AAR cum dinner @ Yck Sakura.Gathering of OSCAR people!Seriously,i had a great dinner with them uh.Some scenes were super LOL!Nevertheless,we had our AAR until 10 plus.Reached home 11 plus,i think :/Was being chased off to sleep by an uncle :D

Thurday,meet up with xuemin after school.Had dinner with her,and caught up a lot of things.Seriously,it's been long since i've went out with her.We should go out more ok?If we are free :DWe went to NUM to buy the laptop case each!And the salesperson named Aaron was super funny lah!When Xuemin asked why the case below like hairy hairy one,he just said:oh no lah,just it's hairy[fa mao].When xuemin was deciding which colour seh should take,and finally she took pink,and that salesperson was like : this colour suits you,like barbie.We were all laughing like hell lah!Great description!

Oh yea,and someone glady forgotten me after having new friends,I'm SAD :'(.And confirm that person will come back and find me when friends IGNORE her!HAAH! >;(

2009-04-23T12:41:00.001+08:00

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2009-04-23T09:09:00.001+08:00

I'm happy about last night :D haha!shall update if i got time!HEH!

2009-04-23T09:09:00.000+08:00

I'm happy about last night :D haha!shall update if i got time!HEH!

2009-04-19T16:57:00.010+08:00

Havent' been blogging for the entire week.So,i shall start with the Orientation,then others :D

ORientation was ok.LEcturers sang to us and i was like O.O.Nothing much,just kinda interested in MEL camp eh.Planning to join photography club eh,so i can at least like buy a DSLR for my own purpose.They had thos campus tour,which is kinda unrelated to our course.Just that i'm kinda excited about practical for next sem!Unfortunately,can't escape flag day.Gosh!OH!and my classmates are pleasent :D

Recce on tuesday was like making me thirsty and those stuff.However,some things we haven't cleared out doubts.Kinda sad that jinnie jin jin and ding couldn't join us.And i simply skipped training for SPICE at school.HAH!Ok,i'm glad that i didn't attend it,heard that it's rather stupid and boring :X.After the recce we had dinner,and i'm super hungry after the entire recce eh,though i had bread in the morning.Bread is being digested too fast eh.So we went to makan @ Vivo city.Here's some pictures :D

Wednesday,i just slacked all the way at home.Too tired eh,slept @ home the entire day

Thursday,went to sleep all the way,and did a bit of donation by myself.Went back to SP to return the tins.Then went for unit activity.Well,i seriously miss my kids over there!I see some improvements over there,and i think they get use to me already :D PAcked things for the next day stayover at sentosa.Slept pretty late because i'm into this book : A man named Dave.

Friday,i was slacking at home until i should meet cheryl.And cheryl cried :X for some reasons :D Met up with cheryl and wen hao and cabbed down to yckss to do some stuff like pack the goodie bags etc.And to settle some admin stuffs which is the nominal roll.ok,and i good damn thing is i totally forgotten all about my charger for my lappy and hp,gosh!how forgetful i can be.After that,met edric on a cab and the whole lot of us cabbed down to vivo!Had dinner while waiting for su hui :D Went to sentosa like somwhere around 8 plus with our barang barung!had the meeting in the middle of the night,which is like LOL.

LEt pictures talk,i'll update on oscar tml.

2009-04-12T12:06:00.003+08:00

Ok,i've just finished helping CPR course,and then now my back and my butt is aching.Maybe it's been long since i've stretched.Great god!

and i'm tired.

2009-04-07T23:28:00.002+08:00

if i told you so,would you remain as my friend?

My ans to you is I don't know.

2009-04-05T03:02:00.003+08:00

OK,Out of nowhere,i just simply can't sleep.

and i shan't post on the BCLS instructor course,except that i think that cpl is nice lah!hah!

Well,things haven't being going that smoothly in life.I thought balancing CCA,work,friends & family are under my fingertips.But that haven't been the case so.I've been too engrossed in my cca that i neglect my friends and family.Work,nothing much to say.Once the passion is gone,it's gone.And i'm not so loving working in climbers' lab,just wish i do not need to go back to that place!ok.well,what to do?life is like that.

2009-03-30T23:24:00.005+08:00

ok,i tell you the last 2 days plus today itself is a tiring day.GOSH!Had the campfire thing,and out of nowhere i got mosquito attack for god's sake!yeah,no doubts for that mosquito attack,cheryl had like 3-4,i got like 13-14.Which is so like damn horrible and itchy!

Ok,overall the thing itself is quite ok,and haha!too many scandals at one go!Hints**HAHA!ok,so actually the campfire itself,we had 4 runs,and before that,the groups have to plan out their cheers and how they would carry out as being appointed for different roles and their job scopes.It's pretty fun for them i guess,at least this is where they do what they plan,pretty enhancing for them.

yeah,pictures are uploaded at facebook.and i'm gonna upload some here.Just for looking purposes,and also to make this post interesting :D

Monday,i've collected my O'level cert and School Testimonial.And Surprisingly,my testimonial wasn't that bad!HAH!

Academic Performance
Michal is an outspoken student who readily shares her thoughts and views during class discussions.She is keen to learn and does not hesitate to clarify her doubts in class.She has a falir for Chinese Language[and my HCL i got like D7,LOL!] and is able to express her opinions in the language succinctly.Michal works well with others and performs well in group projects.

CCA/CIP Involvement
Michal was a dedicated member of the St John's Ambulance Brgade(SJAB)and had attained the rank of Staff Sergeant.She has taken part in numerous competitions including SJAB First aid Competition in 2006 & 2007.In addition,Michal was a member of the Chinese Cultural Society and she ahd represented the school at national competition.She also volunteered her time at various community events,such as providing help at Changi General Hospital in December 2007.

Character Reference
Michal is resilient and determined to excel.She is able to relate to her peers and works closely with her team members,displaying strong leadership skills.She is caring and sensitive to the needs of others.Michal will succeed in reaching her potential in years ahead.

and the book itself which contained the testimonial all those stuff is like damn classy!ok,i'm proud to bring that book for future job interview :D I'm tired and need a severe rest!i'll be updating the BCLS course tml,most probably if i'm over with what happen.

And the feeling of not working is simply GREAT!haha!but when no $$,i'm sad ;'(

2009-03-26T23:14:00.002+08:00

May god bless her,especially her.I was shocked after hearing what happen to her,SERIOUSLY!

2009-03-23T00:18:00.004+08:00

Perhaps i'm way too tired to talk about this.I went to Sentosa to meet up with the regulars and discuss what we should do.In fact,i'm tired.And there's this point of time,i almost slept during the discussion and i'm god damn blur.

Walked around and explored like some gundo,and i tell you,we were walking all the way like some funny ass.So we ended our discussion at like 8 plus,left sentosa and monorail-ed to vivo to have our dinner,left at 10 plus from vivo.

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When that person asked me to think about this question : How is it like if you were to get a shift leader if you could wait a little while longer or just become some small role in your new job?

I don't know,i'm still in a dilemma whether to quit this job or not,even though i already told cath about it.Perhaps because i had a short talk with tha,and he asked me to reconsider it.'Try to make something out of your first job.'That's what that person told me.I guess i decided to reconsider beacause of that particular sentence.I don't know.

Sometimes being nice is a crime.You'll get to mislead someone.

2009-03-22T00:55:00.004+08:00

ok,so finally after the tedious 5 days of snco,i survived!YAY!I got my group November,and i knew some of them were seriously unhappy with the way i work.However,i'm not gonna change my working style.Compliments only do make one arrgant when nothing is completed before that.Throughout the course,i did breakdown at a point of time,I saw how people break down.

Their break downs definately was meant to be a life turning point.Seeing them made me think about my kids back at northlight.Gosh!I miss them for god's sake!Hope that they're fine during the training for NCDCC day,by the way.Yeah,and i really felt glad that some in fact came and thank me,one(i shall not mention the name) came crying and hug me immediately,and thanking me in tears for what i did.I felt quite accomplished,at least i really did felt happy.

I just felt good,and in fact some of my group members came to my blog and started asking me about some stuffs!

To November:
From the first day till the last day,you guys have improve a lot.Even though you're not the best platoon,however,you're the best in my heart.I know standing my naggy scoldings is like crap,however seeing you guys improved and grow throughout the course made me felt happy and relieved.Whatever you take back,please do share with your cadets.Especially your experiences and other stuffs.Like what i've said to you guys,i have discovered some unpolish diamonds,waiting to be found.Appearence are deceiving,it's what your ability let others judge you.Be it good or not,have confidence in what you do.I wish you guys all the best in future.May god bless.

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Pictures are here!and i bet syairah is gonna be jealous!haha!

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ok,went to help out at the leadership seminar,and i tell you,i was so damn pissed by some drivers.I was already rushing for time,and the driver act like he knows how to got to Monfort sec,and then he drive a short distance aafter asking me how to go,i was like WTF!

So i reached monfort and i felt tired.Gosh,i am really tired and hungry.Sir linsen is good ;)Okay,i shall stop here.I'm way too tired!

2009-03-16T00:24:00.001+08:00

ok,i'm really tired,but i couldn't sleep because i'm excited for tomorrow SNCO!Whheeeeessss~~~

2009-03-14T22:54:00.005+08:00

finally,yesterday i was able to do leaf on my latte!HAH!damn happy.HEre's a picture of it.

I've settled my enrollment stuff and my lappy.Thanks Xuemin for accompanying me to do my admin stuff!So i'm waiting for school to start,ok besides that i'm looking forward to snco,and tomorrow's sentosa trip.ok,but there's a lot to do and plan with the entire team,so yeapp!

Xuemin,take care ar!

and yea,i cancelled my entire day schedule including the movie trip with bandcrazy.He's extremely upset,and i think he vent his entire anger on me.Well,i was the one in fault,so how can i expect him to be like happy about it?A very big sorry to him,and i hope he'll get over it soon,and i'll be make it up to him with another movie trip?Maybe,that's like if i'm free.

and much to say again,i'm god damn proud that i made that leaf!HAA!And i'm so in love with Gallery (spanish) version!Gosh,where can dl?I want it!

Ok,for the first time i find spanish attractive in a song!HAA!

Gallery (Spanish Version) - Mario Vasquez

Dime si el dinero te compro, dime si esa es la rason
Que te aguantas, cuando sabes que tiene tantas como tu
Y eres muy hermosa para que
no te trate como su unica mujer
Piensalo bien, yo te quiero tambien

It's not whether you like it or not.

2009-03-12T22:05:00.002+08:00

Hello,folks.I'm god damn bored.

2009-03-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

ok,so i just finished my logbook updating.I know it's like last min,but just write it.On sunday i'm going Sentosa!HAHAs,ok,it's been like so long since i'm there for god's sake.hahas!

Wed (closing,getting my topshop jacket and num sandels)
Thurs (enrollment,may be meeting nasrul)
Friday (9-5 work)
Sat (help out in NCDCC day parade rehearsal)
Sun (sentosa!)

2009-03-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

I wasn't enjoying what i did today,frankly speaking.

2009-03-07T21:20:00.005+08:00

ok,so today kayaking was fun and tiring!I got a bruise ;'(

So,early in the morning.was very tired and with an empty stomach taking a bus,you'll definately feel like puking.So,i had a delicious breakfast,a cup of soyabean milk and a bread!

Morning,my group did a TX rescue,and i was so damn shag after all TX rescue.I don't know,and after all of it,one word;SHAG!HAHAs,at least today i did really looked forward to lunch,and i wasn't the one who started talking first.HAHA!

and i got scolded out of the blue.Seriously,you don't need to scream.Was enjoying my kayaking and some ping pong just shouted at me simply spoiled my day.Well,little rants of mine,but whatever,i'm not gonna care about that ping pong who's damn yaya!

We did not do our assesment which is quite a pity,due to heavy rain!So,i guess we'll be going down again to have our assessment.So,we cleared up as usual and the went to the usual place to dine while waiting for jasp,with wen hao,leo and victor.

talked as much as usual,and tell you something!I've found someone who had the same bithdate with me,and that's Wen Hao!haha!Guess i'll be wishing the 25 may babies happy birthday!I knonw a few though,hah!

2009-03-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

i shouldn't have allowed that to happen.What was i thinking?

2009-03-05T04:24:00.001+08:00

i think i just played with fire.It felt so damn wrong,i shouldn't have allow it to happen.

2009-03-04T03:14:00.002+08:00

ok,i'e just finished bathing and luckily i didn't imagine anything,else i couldn't even step into the bathroom for god's sake!HAH,all because i watched Bloody Valentine.Seriously,this is a really good movie!

hah!wonder how i get in?i don't tell you!heh!Work was rather alright,and for once,i'm glad that i''m not a fan of milkshakes.Else....It's like so god damn gross lah!Just tired out ;L

Perhaps,perhaps..

2009-03-01T21:16:00.004+08:00

ok,so i've gone to the 2 star kayaking for 2 days.and yes,i've been sunburned!AGAIN~~See the picture,haha!

2009-02-24T21:50:00.006+08:00

Okay,several updates here.

JASPER BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION
Ok,so we managed to surprise him!Whhes!So let the pictures talk.

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I'm reading a chinese novel recently named 相亲以后.Pretty interesting.Talking about how a 27 year old woman,who actually seeked for love,and on the way she actually found something elses.

I find this quote very interesting.

If i do not love you so much,i can say more than i can say
如果不是爱得那么深,或许我就可以说得多一点.

I believe if love has come,i'm willing to commit myself into it.Be it sweet or tough,that's what makes love so near yet so far.Not many experience it for the time being,but i believe it'll happen to me and people around!CheerS!

2009-02-20T21:47:00.003+08:00

ok,3 cheers!

i finally received my SP enrollment package!3 cheers!but i was damn gundo regarding the Finance stuff,and tell you something,i was stucked at that page for nearly 1 hour when the entire seurvey should be done about 45 mins.I'm only at the like 2nd section and cost me 1 hour!how sad can that be?

Ok,as promised,MR Victor Khoo's photo will be up here!Muahahha!

He got that white shirt,i don't have ;( boohoo!Hmm,next time i'll go take the L1 instructor course,like that i can quit mac liao!hurray!Easy money!Anyway,girls wanted to be his dearest gf!HAH!I bet he'll kill me when he sees this :x

I need to collect my enrollment stuff and etc on the 12th MArch 2.45pm @ SP.Say yay to no more EX bus fare!Say yay again to individual student pass!YAAYAAAYA!I'm happy!Finally!

2009-02-19T00:16:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to do in the middle of night whereby i'm sleepless.ok,so just to post about any random thing inside my head.

Ok,so i was actually came across this website http://www.urbandictionary.com/ through a tagnote of a friend of mine(I don't think i know that person anyway,LOL!).and i went to search my name and this is the result of my name.

Michal
1. A usually failed attempt in which to seduce a female.

2. A popular European condom.

3. A female Gazelle's reproductive organs.

4. A common Polish name originated from the American Word "Jackass."
1. Look at that nerd, he just pulled off a michal and got rejected.

2. Are you sure your using protection? I won't use anything except Michal.

3. At the Science Lab, doctors are studying the Gazelle's Michals.

like holy crapp!Popular brand of a condom eh!and do i seduce ladies for god's sake?!HAHA!I'm not attracted to ladies alright?I'm still the normal,slightly bitchy,and oh so damn noisy Michal ;)

Okay,let's talk about serious stuff here.Recently there's this friend of mine who is being damn god funny.Okay,i'm going to type out the damn fag story out,and DO NOT be INFLUENCED by me POV,and!and!and!DO NOT complain,but comment ;)I'll name this friend A.

A was bugging my friend for a present since christmas last year,and my friend did not get sth for A,so she bugged him till now and recently,which is like after christmas.Okay,this is the part where A irritate me most,A likes to complain and makes comparison between me and A in front of my friend.
Eg:
A:why she can do this,but i cannot.
F:*speechless and stunt by her reaction*

Ok,so fine.This friend of mine is damn close with me,so sometimes we'll get to hold each other hands while in the mrt sitting down,or lie on each other shoulder because too exhausted after work.However,we're just plain friends,i keep a distance with this friend.For MRT route,I would alight first,then A,then my friend.So,A would go and tell the hell lots of stuff regarding me and doing comparisons in front of my friend.

So,there's one time,i was telling my the other collegue regarding the bugging of present issue,because A still owe my colleugue money for being so stingy after losing a pen and insisted my collegue to pay her for it.OMG!How much can a pen cost?My collegue gave her a note,and expected a change.However,A did not return the money until NOW,okay?

So,i didn't realise A was standing behind me,and i talked about it damn loud,and laughed at her,and after that,she went to complain to my friend.I know it's my fault for laughing at A,but i didn't apologized.So,later on that day,after i alighted,A wanted to be somewhat closer to my friend and did some stuff.

Then one day A wanted my friend's contact,and she approached the other friend of mine,let's name her B.So A asked B for my friend's contact.I thought it was B who wanted my friend's contact,and god!i just found out the truth that it was A who wanted it.

me:Why A don't want to ask me?
B:A say got misunderstanding with you.

I was like err,when did we have this fucking invisible misunderstanding,and i think A had some bloody issues with me or what.A complains to my friend about me,and try to do some irksome actions with my friend,and now claims to have an issue with me.Perhaps A is still stuck somewhere back where i laughed at her acts,but somehow i don't give a care about what A is thinking and doing.HOWEVER,A is greatly harassing my friend for god sake!perhaps A is damn obsessed with my friend,idk.But whatever it is,I'm just irritated that she speaks ill of me and doing unnecessary stuff behind my back!A is damn bitch with an innocent facE!

2009-02-17T22:45:00.002+08:00

Bonjour people!HAppy Valentine Day!

Had Valentine's day celebration with many many people!okay,not that i'm a flirt,however i was having the kayaking expedition @ Changi Adventure Coast Centre.Ok,i kayaked there but then i did not kayak back,mainly i'm lazy lah.Ok,simple as that.

So,my Valentine day started off with meeting victor early in the morning,and i felt like god damn sleepy.and then trained till there,and talking about my unit ;)okay,so i got ferrero roche and toblerone from dearest chew pheng!heh!

After the entire kayaking expedition,me chew pheng,victor and CHOW jin hui with felicia and elizabeth went to makan-ed at parkway parade.and hehs,someone is progressing damn fast can?HAHAHAAHHAHA!

okay,so here's a picture of the kayaking expedition ;)

2009-02-13T23:58:00.002+08:00

I love you in the past,
I love you now.
PErhaps,i would love you even in the future.

2009-02-07T21:44:00.002+08:00

So,i think i need sleep.and i felt my temperature was going up and down.I'm not having dengue by the way ;)

So,it's like pretty hectic in the morning.However,everything was quite alright after that.I'm tired!and i screamed like some ah siao can?Whatever!I finally get to see Lina today!and most probably next week thurs too,hahas :)Gonna see chew pheng only next week sat ;(,but then it's better than not seeing her ;)!YJ perhaps on the CLT meeting would be seeing her!

Xuemin,havent' been working with you!Miss you like some ah siao!!hahas ;)Hope to see you soon ;)

I miss these girls!

2009-02-07T00:19:00.003+08:00

Oh yeaH!I can go to Adventure finale tomorrow!Whheees!Damn happy!Further more,Lina and Nasrul would be going!Double yayyysss!I'm happy~~lalalalal~~

okay,so today i went to WO promotion,my feet bloody hurt like hell can.BLISTERS!FAG it!Alright,mainly just helped here and there.Hahs,and some NS men pissed me off.I was giving them that roll eyes thing.Okay,i know it's stupid,but i couldn't resist doing so.When it's nearly to the end of the ceremony whereby the parents or OC of the WO was donning on their ranks,i was actually thinking if one day my any one of my NLS kids would be able to achieve this rank.

I know some of you guys may be asking me to dream on,however,nothing is impossible. ;)

I guess that's all for my post!Cheers!

To...........,
I want a proper goodbye to be bid,and things i've been longing to tell.How much your effort was appreciated by me.How i find you're damn sacarstic and hilarious at times ;)The key now,is just the courage i needed to muster up,and tell you how i felt.How thankful i am.Whatever it is,i want to bid a proper goodbye to you.

2009-02-05T02:03:00.004+08:00

Ok,i'm gonna get so packed up with my Schedule and stuff.I damn don't feel like working can?

Okay,So,i'm gonna have a Adventure Finale on Saturday,which is still uncertain until someone come and replace mys shift!I so don't feel like working,most probably i'll no show?Then on the 14th of feb i'll be attending Kayaking Expedition,my NLS kids will be coming too.There's also a CLT meeting on 12th feb which is right after my activity.Guess i'll be tired out.Definately?I'm also attending the W/O promotion,helping out mainly.

Alright,so overall schedule will be:

5th feb (thu) NCDCC training @ NLS
6th feb (Fri) W/O promotion (cafe meeting which i'm not planning to turn up)
7th feb (Sat) Adventure Finale!
12th feb (Thu) NCDCC training @ NLS,CLT meeting
14th feb (Sat) Kayaking Expedition

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Okay,had some random shopping after getting pay!YEah!!I bought some sports related clothing.A reebok shorts,a reebok sports bra,and a nike shirt.From next week on,hopefully i get to have the entire week off which i'll be damn elated,i will be going jogging the entire week.I need to cut fats,especially the lower body fats.

After talking so much,i havent' been posting much about my life recently.New year ahead,new plans.So i've gotten into my course,finally i could offically throw away Chung Cheng uniform!3 cheers!Okay,before getting my results,i was so afraid that i could not pass those basic subjects,especially for both my prelims i couldn't acheive any grades higher than C.Imagine how desperate i was at that time?Seeing the results and posting were just a relieve to me.

I wasn't actually serious about taking Maritime Studies at all,it was just pure uniquesness i tend to enjoy.Where people don't fight over courses like these,and they would give you those kind of expression like : whoa!Tough course you also want to go?hahs,stupid reason,i can say.Then,while choosing my course,i start to consider my career path,and i thought why not choose Maritime Studies and then,sign on to Navy or to some company,and then further studies and get a Degree back,so on and so forth.Due to my personality,and something familiar like uniform group,i had my decision made.

I know it's a bit silly to be thinking about my entry to a university(regardless of local or overseas)now.However,i do hope that i don't disappoint my mom,who had been mentally tortured by me during the depression period of o levels,financially supported me.Hahs,i'm proud to announce that i'm saving money for my university studies currently.Slowly building up,that's why i sadly need to face a NICE and CARING boss like Louise,who taught me how to APPRECAITE the ART of MANAGING LABOUR.

and of course,to give my NLS kids a motivation,where everything is possible for them.Even going to ITE,is also a future for them.Rather than letting them stray outside and be the future-to-be ah bengs and ah lians,right?Though some came UNWILLIGLY because they want to go to ITE badly,whereby achieving a good CCA point is a must criteria in their ITE admission.I do hope that during their stay in NLS NCDCC,they might pick up/learn something useful.Not talking about the necessary CD skills and knowledge,but lifetime skills (eg,HR skill) they could pick up.They're not someone to mess with practically,they're not mentally unstable kids.They're just normal kids,it's just that they are late bloomers.Definately,i myself do believe that late bloomers achieve more than normal ones.God favours his kids,especially those we aren't that bright.If one day they were to say a thank you,i'll be touched like hell,i guess;)I know it may not be easy to achieve my target,and i've been warned by a few how tough it is to take up this responsibilty,but i do hope it would be fruitful ;)

Definately,i do heard some terrible critism about NLS itself from some people.However,have you thought that the holy task of changing their lives,is not as easy as it seems?It's something you'll never be able to achieve in a short time.Patience is essential,nevertheless endless encouragements and motivation keeps them going on.That's why i find NLS teachers noble ;)

Recent thoughts!I know it's loonnnggg.but i ain't able to sleep even it's 3.08am.GOSH!

2009-02-03T23:48:00.003+08:00

Bought some bottoms with mum shopping and i got a levis jeans.alright,it's the last day of the promomtion,well so i just get it.I need some polo tees and tops!

Working tomorrow at 2.Sian.

2009-02-02T23:48:00.004+08:00

I'm damn pissed off with SMRT and bus services.IT's like what the hell can?!Why poly students cannot extend concession pass but only JC people could?!IT's totally not fair for us!Somemore i have to wait until april then i could get it.Imagine how much my does my transportation cost? around $4,or maybe more.Damn expensive can?!1 month $120+++.That company doesn't even allow me to buy concession?!FUCK IT!

Alright,i found someone who has the same course with me but it's like duhhhh.Like what victor say,pray hard that i dont' get into same class with her.and not many are going for adventure finale?hmmmmmmsss.

I'm going back tomorrow to help out in St John tml.May there be miracle ;)

SIAN,PAY havent come!!

2009-02-01T00:57:00.003+08:00

when i thought i was mature enough to handle things,somehow it shows that i'm way too childish.I thought,i thought,i thought..

Too much i thoughts,sometimes it's too overloading that i've cancelled out i thought and coin out some nonsensical new word.

If i could turn back time,definately i wouldn't let him slip off.I shouldn't spite him off just like that.However,things just happen.He's gone.Hope everything goes smoothly for him,at least that's what i could do at this very moment.

In fact,something i just recalled just let me laughed off my ass.I know this may be very offensive,however,it just meant for laughing purpose.Or maybe for mine laughing purpose.HAHS.When i was in Primary 3,i was aspire to get into RGS,i thought it was cool.How ignorant can i be at then?HAHS!But when i was in Primary 6,i just wanted to get into any school but not with low COP.It definately make me look xia suay in some lousy school uniform,and unfortunately i got into chung cheng.

Then when i was in Sec 1,i felt more superior while standing beside pri school kids!Haahs,how ignorant am i?Then i took the bloody noob photo because it's required by the photographer,and till now,i still can't forget how i look like.Damn silly lah.I looked up to my seniors in sec 3,,andthinking how cool it is to be in Sec 3.When i was in Sec 3,i felt so lousy in that class i felt like quitting school for god's sake.School was just a total disaster.grades dropped,everything just blew.CCA doesn't appeal to me that much anymore.Sec 4,i decided to work hard,i tried improving on my attendance,but some time i still poned school(need a break from the hammering etc).i tried to catch up with some stuff (not science!),I felt depressed most of the time(get emo out of sudden?).Especially the period when o' levels is arriving,i binged and gained a few sinful kgs.And Auntie Geok Lian said i gained wieght in front of a lot of people.What hell?

hahs,and here am i now,starting afresh!Away from my sec school life,going on to poly!!May MTM be interesting!

2009-01-30T20:33:00.003+08:00

Alright,I was so nervous about the posting today and i slept damn late last night,and then i woke up around 5 plus nearing to 6 to wait for the sms of posting,and finally!I was so #$$%%@##$#%$%,i got my first choice!Whees.

I'm so gonna love Maritime Transportation Management!Oh my god!Hoope i get to have a good year!

Whhessss!!

WHOEVER GOT INTO MARITIME TRANSPORTATION MANAGEMENT,PLEASE LEAVE DOWN A COMMENT OR TELL ME!!!

2009-01-29T00:50:00.002+08:00

hahas,i got my watch!I bought it.This time is puma,not Levis.Frankly speaking,i regret getting the Levis one,because there are imitations everywhere and many asked me if i was wearing the authentic one,it's like so...That's why now i got a puma watch!It's like my previous specs,the black and red!HAHAS!.Got time then i take photo of it.Plus,it's touch screen.However,it's kinda vunerable,so have to be careful with it.

So i was like figuring hwo to switch modes for like half an hour ago,and finally i figured out!It was like...urrggghhh!Tough!I almost smashed the watch,but thinking how vunerable and how much i spent on it,i decided to continue solving the mystery of my watch.Gosh!

Tomorrow going back to unit for activity,maybe i should get a haircut before that?I don't know leiiiii...

2009-01-28T12:03:00.003+08:00

So much being a brother of his.Simply stand there feigning ignorance as if you know nothing when you're the main cause of the entire thing.

2009-01-27T15:29:00.005+08:00

Thanks for giving me such WONDERFUL experience for the SECOND day of CNY.

Firstly,thanks for asking someone to punch in when you thought i wasn't coming.I wonder how later cafe is going to die.HAHS!I know i shouldn't gloat, but it really serves him right.Well,what can i say?HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHS.

Secondly,thanks for offering me that 4 hours of job,which i bloody don't give a care after being effed by some UNBELIVABLE person.Oh well,if you're the one,would you give a damn bloody care after being effed?Not for me,i'm not a STAR.

Thirdly,thanks for being so damn ~~CARING~~ and ~~SWEET~~. pui!I'm so damn ~~TOUCHED~~,like real.Where did your guts go after effing me?HAHS!

Last but not least,I'm NOT SICK.

Well,if you're unhappy upon seeing my post,and i do know you'll read this,simply press the X at your top right hand corner.That's your problem for being unhappy,none of mine.

I'm still damn bloody pissed,and i wonder why did i cry the hell out it when i know that he's someone so inhumane already.For god's sake,i realised how stupid i am.What a good way to start off with CNY..

2009-01-26T23:14:00.002+08:00

Alright,life hasn't been great for me,especially i'm damn lacking of sleep and sneezing like hell away.oh my god!I'm now suffering from headache can?

Posting of school would be on friday,pray that i would go into Marinetime studies.

I'm sad that my husband had someone in mind?hmmms...hahas,i'm still single alright?hehs.anyway,i do miss you.

2009-01-24T01:12:00.002+08:00

I miss you.

2009-01-20T23:57:00.004+08:00

Hellos,i'm here at joanne's house.Notification to collect no.3 is here!yays!i'm happy to get it soon,this thurs shall be my big day for everything!I'll get my no.3 uniform and first time seeing the cadets.

May god bless me that everything would run smoothly ;)

2009-01-19T01:47:00.004+08:00

There are many WHAT IFs and I DON'T KNOWs currently for my life.

1.What if i don't get into SP (MARITIME TRANSPORTATION MANAGEMENT or MARINE ENGINEERING )?Too many people are like going there?I'm afraid.

2.I don't know whether it's the right time to get myself involved in a relationship,which the previous one end up like some disaster.It's too fast,i know.But,am i mentally prepared for one again?

3.I don't know whether to stay on with this job.Somehow it seem crap to me.I'm sick with the people who once arouse me with their great personality,makes me want to hang out with them.Their actions really make me felt disgusted,their words made me cringe at their ugliness of human.This is the real society,i know.It's just....I'm speechless.

4.I don't know what i'm living for.The existence of mine is just a minor subject to the round thing we call it 'the EARTH'!Wow!People around me were so inspired by one thing or another.They were so excited when they told me regarding it and there they go 'hey,i was like so .......' and on they go.I would there daydreaming (mostly)about how life would end,what are the factors that would be present,a good goodbye bid?I don't know.When people ask me to be careful when I jaywalk,i don't seemed to care compared to the past.Death is just nothing,what lurks behind the cause of danger is huamnity.IT's something whereby black and white doesn't exist,only grey do.Can you be a good guy forever?

If life is like shit to you,compare to those whose lives are worst than yours.and at least,i get to be fed and has a house to stay in,like a puppet being pampered.Hahs,how well life is?

2009-01-14T23:05:00.003+08:00

okay,i've submitted my choices just now!pretty good.another task clear!Whees!

and i caught up with someone who was almost once ____,this is for me to know,for you to find out.We manage to actually talk properly and even joke with each other.hahas!Super happy!

I want to go kayaking again!become more tan!Of course,not like some black racist guy lah!I'm not racist ok?*looks with innoncent eyes* hahas!

oh yea,something to complain about!I got a lot of bruises,especially the one on my lower right limb.Here's a picture of it.

ok,goodbye.I'm gonna sleep.Planning to go kayaking for the 2nd day of the course.Just play play one will do.Nasrul remember to ask!Else i put your picture here!hahas!

2009-01-13T23:24:00.002+08:00

Well,i was wondering why some fucking people just make me damn piss off.

He think he's a manager,but he's just a FUCKINGsecond ASSt,doesn't make me respect you.You even slept during your shift,and let your people die outside,i wonder what kind of FUCKING GOOD manager are you?RACIST BLACK & BIAS manager!

and as a SHIFT LEADER,so what if you think you're gonna promote to a manager?You're just another normal worker to the company,and after promotion,you're just one FUCKING DOG!I thought you're someone whom i can trust,someone who won't stoop so low to get what you desire.However,you FUCKING just backstabbed me like hell behind my back,and you even said i'll backstab you?!What fuck is this?You're the one who started everything,trying to impress everyone,thinking you're damn commited.PUI!Now,one is down,and chances of getting that FUCKING promotion is damn high.What for to act as if everyone is your bloody FUCKING friends and backstabbed them in front of the FUCKING BLACK manager who is so damn racist against chinese?!No point trying to FUCKING impress him because he's just like you.Another DOG for the company.May god bless you do not get your FUCKING promotion and let you automatic resign during MARCH!EFFKER!

2009-01-12T17:38:00.004+08:00

alright,finally the music is being faced!I'm so glad i did well for some subjects which i expected to get C for it!Especially for A maths, English and c.humanities!I expected just a C6 for them.Surprisingly,i got B3,B3 and B4 for these subs!Totally unexpected!And what i expected for E maths was around there.IT's just a turn-off to see that fagging result of that subject.And due to UNFORSEEN CIRCUMSTANCES,I FAILED my higher chinese.I also don't know why.hahs!

And to thank my beloved teachers who helped and did not give up on me when i was rebellious and stubborn at a certain period.Thanks!

Alright,now i'm just so damn confused over the meaning of L1R4+CCA.It's like so bloody weird.Gonna find out tomorrow,if i have the time..Hopefully ;l

I broke off with Mr Chua just a while ago.I just felt a little sad,and nothing else.Lucky there's not much commitment i had in this relationship,else i'll cry like nobody business.IT's just a pity,however it's still the best that we did not drag on with this relationship.Else both of us will be nowehere near happiness.If you're that kpo to know what happen,just ask me (:

Oh yea,i'm considering whether to sign on to army after tearsury education.It's like the course i'm taking would be fully subsidized if i sign on but on the condition that i fulfil a 4 year bond as a specialist..The offer is like so damn tempting,God!

I guess later on,i'm gonna check out my schedule tml,so that i can go back to school and ask regarding that L1R4+CCA thingy!yeah,that's all.Goodbyes!

2009-01-08T23:15:00.004+08:00

I'm super tired today!

So,indeed i was a little crazy to pick up fight with someone,however just made me feel shuang!LOLS.It's crazy looking up unwanted troubles and scoldings,i know.So,i thought i was kinda crazy to do that.Well,what is done cannot be undone unless you reverse time.However,looking back at the scene just makes me laugh.Okay,i know it's pretty evil to laugh at someone who was being 'bullied' by me and cried because of that,but sad to say,i do really find it real funny.

Okay,work is just like the repeatition of every other day.It's just become more boring when less interesting people work.yea.

And a great big thanks to jasper who's always there to help me advertise the same old thing,and being sacarstic with his thank you.Yea,and to make up for the previous post,because i left him out.hahs!Congrats to him and may he pass the interview!CheerS!

2009-01-02T20:53:00.003+08:00

Pardon me for the lack of posts recently.I'm just tried out after working graveyard on the 31/12/08,and morning 10am on 1/1/09.

Looking back at 2008,i really achieved a lot.Seriously,I had a lot of my 'first time' experiences,i had my ups and downs.Most importantly,i started to think like a young adult and be sensative to others feelings at time.For people who know me,they know i'm really like some mad car driver,very reckless and tactless verbally and physically towards people.

Well,worth to mention something,at least i learn to think like an adult.Okay,let's say onlt at times.

A thank you to those who have crossed my paths in life.

During year 2008,i've realised why i've been that stupid to neglect my studies at crucial periods.I've tried to hang on,with the help my closest friends there.They encouraged me when i had problems,cheer me up,and gave me the motivation to move on.Xuemin,Nazurah,Sin Yee and the clique.

OF course,there are some unsaid words to some friends out there like hon qi,jun fei,clement.I hope they'll catch it here.

First to start with,Xuemin!
She's a very good listener,as always!When i'm angry,her ears will be bombarded by me.hahas.Something to be really frank,she's the first person to let me express myfeelings frankly.She definately brighten my day!I'm really glad that you're always there to stay in contact with me no matter what.You're a super sweet friend!May our friendship last long!

Up next,Nazurah.
She's a very good friend to be with.Encourage throughout my journey.She's always there to make me feel good when i''m super sad.OKay,but being with her,somehow makes me reflect my first impression i gave people.She's always so logical towards handling stuff,perhaps it's me who gets too emotional at times.Well,i'm one sensative person,at times.hahs!Thanks!

Sin Yee.
Though a bit naggy at times,she showed care and motivate the crucial period.Of course,there may be some bits of ups and downs in our friendship,however,you're really a goof friend of mine!CHERISHED!

Clique
I hope you guys soar in whatever you do.Your abilites varies individually,and definately you're able to reach the stars with proper guidiance along the way.May this coming year be more interesting and enjoyable compared to the previous year which left us many beautiful memories.

Mr chua
you've re-entered my life once again.I hope this time it will worth my time and dedications i've made.I've never made some commitments in my relationship history,you're the first.I don't want a bad ending.I'm glad we managed to clear up the misunderstanding before 2008 ends.ilu.

Hon qi
We've haven't been speaking much like the past.A friendship which was once broken is hard to be mend like once again.Thanks for those wonderful memories,and of course the motivation that made me press on throughout my CLT course.I doubt you know that,right?hahas.

Jun Fei & Clement
2 ah peks who are leacherous.Well,i hope you guys achieve your desired goals in life,may you lead and reach to your goals.You guys have been great talking patners in the middle of the night.Thanks!

SJAB YEAR 4s 2008 & CLT 4th Batch CLT & Joanne
May everyone achieve their desired goals and soar!

MYself:
I'm waiting for pay to be out to buy a new bag.Zinc bags sucks,doesnt' last long.Plus some clothes,and to go out with Mr chuaa.Loves!

2008-12-28T23:40:00.003+08:00

If it was you,and you told me that.How would you react?Shocked?

You come and go as you like.It's your freedom to do so,i know.But have you thought of my feelings?You come and just stop by for a little while,made me felt downright pathetic.I don't want to be that girl standing by the side of your life,let you stop and give me that kind of sympathy.I don't want that.

You leave,just like a gust of wind.A goodbye would be fine,but you just left like this once more.Without bading a goodbye,you walked out of my life.I can't stop you,for i'm no one in your eyes.

Please,i just need you to make the decision.If you want to stay,then make me feel cherished.Don't treat me like some rubbish.I'm a human,and i have feelings.I do feel guilty for throwing tantrums at you at most times.I made you suffered in silence.I know how it feels.If it's revenge you want now,just leave me alone.

Don't make me crave for you once more.Don't make me stare at my handphone just for your message the entire day.Don't treat me so nice.I mean it.

2008-12-28T14:45:00.000+08:00

hi helloos.

I'm just so effing bored here.

2008-12-28T01:52:00.004+08:00

On christmas,i worked.

I had a quarrel with Mr Chua because i was feeling down after being screamed by ROBERTdog that my counter was short of $13++,and Nor was telling me not to worry,and reassured me.I just told Nor,if he wants to give me a warning letter,just give.Basically,I'm already kind of sick of the DRASTIC changes in the store and some stupid actions of some stupid REPTILE,a warning letter is nothing to me now.If you want to know what happen throughout and how that fucking ROBERTdog scolded me,ask me personally.

okay,i miss Mr chua.I so damn regret typing that message to agitate him when our relationship is kinda like on the rocks already?Whatever you call that,dude.I want him to be that Mr chua,he's now ignoring me.Gosh!i'm just too dependent on him for companionship.

and there's this crazy customer came and scold me for no fucking reason simply made me so pissed.He's so damn rude.You're just paying the price for like $6++ and you expect quality service,what crap is that?Then what are those kind of service you want the restaurants you visit and pay $100++ there?Damn that stupid morpeng customer.I don't think if you have any rights to fucking leave down this sentence:'If she don't want to serve me,ask her jolly well not to work here.'CRAZY FAGGOT!

Oh!and Raji gave me a gift which is some sort of like a baby.I don't know why he gave me that,however i do appreciate his sincerity in it.Thanks Raji!

Mr chua,i want to talk to you asap!

2008-12-25T01:24:00.003+08:00

Okay,Finally the NCO course ends!I think i had developed a connection between the cadets who're in the NCO.Although they owed me like about 3.4litres of water throughout the course and did not complete it.But who cares man?!The course is over.

Alright,these cadets are my very first batch of cadets i come across in my NCDCC life which is like super short!I'm glad that they passed out and finally showed the least minimum amount of initiative which developed during the course(although XXXX said they had zero initiative,but i thought otherwise as they went through the course)!

Seeing these cadets pass out makes me think of the 4th CLT Course,and i do really owe these instructors a BIG thank you for guiding my way through both courses.Definately,Sir Jonathan(someone whom i really look up upon),the AFIS esp,Shahir and Ren Feng.I never thought once that in my life,that i would ever stand here at this point.thanks!

Okay,here are some pictures i've took with them,and the most funny thing is that people said Jia hui looked like my sister!Hahs!Do please comment on it.

LAstly,MERRY XMAS.

and i do want you for my life,not only christmas.

2008-12-20T08:12:00.001+08:00

sometimes,it's just too hard to get concnerned and to be concerned.

2008-12-13T22:39:00.004+08:00

okay,i'm back here ALIVE and i POP-ed!Yeah!Well,it's been like 1 week i've been back home and blogging!hahas!

Okay,so i actually enjoyed my days at HTA,and most importantly i really had made many friends during the stay.Well,at times we do quarrel,however the times we had together had bonded us.I'm glad that i get to know you guys.

Thanks for that someone to actually made me motivate through the course,you're my target.i'll make you lose your stand and unit one day!Await the grand day for like 5 years later.Don't laugh and just wait!See who will be the one making the last laugh!HAHAHAS.

Well,actually I think i really need to thank a lot people,whom had made me to go on this far.Especially someone whom i'm really grateful to,he almost OOC-ed me at the beginning of the camp.He shouted at me countless times,and he tried to make me reflect when i'm really depressed about the campfire thing.I do really look up to him.biggest thanks to him,that i am who i am now.Moving on towards my goals for the future.

OF course,someone who recommended me in,assisted me and made me felt better by talking and finding out what happen during the course.Well,A big thanks to you.A turning point,which i never ever thought of reaching upon this stage.Thanks,a lot.

Not leaving out my most supportive friend whom always keep in contact with me while i'm away for the stay in and my course at CDA and HTA.

Thanks!

2008-12-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

hi hello,it's been some time since i've blogged.So,mainly i'm quite busy attending the course.and i saw MR YEO SONG RONG at HTA!Hahas,ok.So,lessons sometimes were like dry,hoever jokers are all around causing laughters.I don't know but we still owed the instructors around 400++ push ups.That's a lot eh?YEs,it is.

Somehow,i find XXX pretty nice,thee is not so heartless and the way thee do things really do make me give thee a lot of respect.Maybe i'm overly sensative or what,but it's like sometimes thee tries to help me a lot,especially the coping up with the pace that is going on with the others.Like i said,I may be oversensative.Surprisingly,sometimes i find thee kinda cute and funny.In like a few minutes,thee could be like someone to pacify young kindergarden kids,after that thee could change into someone totally different,shout here and there.Thee doesn't make me hate punishment at all,if thee's the one commencing it.LOLS.I mean who likes punishment right?I'm like some gundo saying i like punishment indirectly.FREAK!

For today,i was really touched by the moment when we had to celebrate shafiq's birthday.I don't know,it's something we bond together,or perhaps not?I don't know.I just had this feeling at that very moment,and it disappeared after that.LOL?!and that was the time i felt XXX was really good.I think after POP,i want to take pictures with XXX.I guess he's like camera-shy or something?I don't know.I guess i'll try my luck for....

Aww,and i miss working with everyone.I don't know.Cafe suddenly so many people pop out,and i was like:O.ok.(Interpretation:What the hell?)How to accept these changes?I don't know.By hope or by crude,i must make it work!Gosh!

Looking forward to my pop and SJ chalet,and perhaps other things!
Ending here!BYES!

2008-11-24T03:28:00.001+08:00

Today i did closing and i'm pretty tired.ZZzz.

2008-11-22T01:25:00.004+08:00

okay,talking about life nowadays is just so TIRING!I got to wake up early morning around 5.30 and prepare myself for the course and sleep in the late night to iron the uniform.Then i would drag myself to the course itself.The first and second day i was quite ok with it.However,on the third,it's where i got the shoutings from XXXXX lew.

The sight of him just made me cringe like hell after that.I could actually tremble like some crazy upon seeing him,though just distance away.It's ridiculous i know,but well it just couldn't be helped.The phyhchological effects yah?Okay,so he screamed flat on my face,and i was so damn nervous for my footdrill,plus all those nervous panic attack and there goes my footdrill.What hell.

The next day,i wasn't feeling too good,thus i decided to seek a doctor for advise.Well,who could be well when you felt like puking almost everyday,no apprtitde no matter how appetising the food is.and worst,you couldn't even rest or sleep in class and had to keep both heavy eyelids open due to lack of sleep.So,i went to consult a doctor,and he said i was under stress,lack of sleep etc etc./yeah,so finally i get to rest really well.

Not until i saw XXXXX again,and the sight of him just made me......(Fill in the apporiate words).PErhaps i'm too sensative or what,but when i was learning tying knots,i guessed he noticed i was shivering and asked to turn up the temperature of the air con?Maybe,i'm just thinking too much.I don't even know what's up in his mind anyway.Well,he's someone i think had some emotional strings going on,just made me curious about him?I don't know,but the thing i must remember:he's not friendly.

Yeah,so after today the POC,i didn't stayed on for a photo shooting,because i didn't want to.As someone insignificant as i am,i don't want to make myself so visible at times,that's what i thought.So,after the so call lunch which is somewhere around 11 plus,i just went off and took train to somerset.On the way to work was like so malu.

I was actually sleeping when i almost leaned onto the old lady seating on my right,and she was really a nice lady in fact.She asked if i'm too tired after working and didn't mind what i did to her.The other was that when i crossed my boots,i accidentally hit onto her claves or her feet,i was like kinda drownsy,and she didn't mind.Before i left,i even said sorry to her.Imagine in one day is like super duper malu.

So,i punched in early.and you know what?I was super duper tired.I almost slept during working hours,it's gossiping that kept me going on.Of course,i'm not that obtuse to talk about what i gossiped lah.Then some fagging pendek keep on scolding wang rui for no reason,and i'm just pissed off.He kept on coming to our area and make stupid comments as if he's the crew leader.Simply pisses me off can?And he kepy on scolding wang rui for no good reason.What right do he have to interfere and scold people.Com'on lah SHORTY!LIKE YOU WILL PROMOTE!

PEople commented i was really happy working today.May good days last long,whereas CLT course don't arrive soon.

I dunnccchh liikke trouubllesoommme pppeeepppo.GRRR!

2008-11-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

As a mother of mine for 16 years,have you ever understand anything about me?I don't wear dresses,you forced me onto it?Until you had no idea how to force me onto it,then you stopped it..Then now,whatever decision i've made,you only know how to criticize this and that,where is the support a mother should give a daughter?I've been with you 16 years,yet you still forced me onto things.You detest the things i adore,but have you ever tried to understand why do i like it?You would always nag at me,but do you ever understand why i prefer do things certain ways?No,you never do.All you do is to criticize how wrong i were,emphasize how stupid i am.What good do i have in your eyes?Nothing.I'm just some worthless piece of shit to you.

What did you said when i asked you to come for my graduation ceremony?All you could say was i was a disgrace to you and started blaming on my friends.I always thought a mom should be supportive regardless of what their child is doing,yet you made me felt the other way.You made me felt bad.Really rotten to the core of myself.

What am i to you?If i've hurt myself,you won't ask until i tell you so.

2008-11-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

Whatever i do,even if i didn't even do it,you like to accuse me and scold me like some dumbass.I don't see i'm in any wrong,even if there is that is to talk back to you.I don't see how and why should i be malign by you for doing something i've never done.I hate explanations,and i doubt you fucking knew that.So,you just kept on ranting about your fucking business about what things should be done and not to be done.And ask me to shut up because you couldn't win the fight.you're just a loser who just likes to complain.FAGGOT!

2008-11-10T04:45:00.003+08:00

Ok,i'm so nervous for the last paper!and that is tomorrow.Don't think your eyes are actually fooling you,i'm really alive here and blogging at 4.46 am in the morning.That's insane ehs?

I'm gonna have a busy schedule on the 11/11 and onwards.I'm just so nervous,excited what's coming up right after 11/11.HAHAS!

Men nowadays are sucha jerk!

2008-11-05T21:20:00.001+08:00

I cut my hair le!I bought new specs already!YAYS!

2008-11-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

Someone is always there to make me look dumb.This time,i hope that person will crash sooner or later.but i'll be better in one way thee never will,that is 良知.Although i really have a bad mouth,i'm not someone who is that schememing.Thee actions just make me cringe,but still congrats thee for whatever thee should be happy over with.

2008-11-03T23:08:00.003+08:00

I chatted with 2 of these friends where i didn't really talk to during o' levels.We do share some common interests,which is kinda like unique.In one way or another,hahas.They are funny.LOLS.

So i actually asked some people around to buy RMCC glove!hahas,though kinda expensive.I believe karma comes one way or another,children also benefit from your donation!So,please donate ok?!hahas.

2008-11-02T22:17:00.006+08:00

so i watched the NAtional Treasure,and i didn't really went to sleep.And that movie definately makes me recall of my primary school friend of the name Jacqueline Lim.Alright,she just make this movie session very memorable.OKay,perhaps only me?

So,we're actually watching this movie with a bunch of friends,if i'm not wrong is the library gang.I sat beside her in the cinema,and was too engrossed watching the movie itself.Until a hand sneak by from my the seat on my left.I turned and look at her,she was there still concentrating onto the movie.Well,that really caught me by surprise and definately a great turning point to my thinkings at that point of time.

She actually made my heart skipped a beat,kinda like a fling.Okay,i know you must be finding it kinda disgusting for a primary 6 girl to feel this way at that point of time.No one actually hold my hands besides pri 1 and 2 where teachers ask you to hold our partners hands.Yeah,that's why i had such kinda thing.

So,i did what normally couples do.I held her hand tightly.Throughtout the movie is like this.Until i received a message which spoils this.I had to let go of her hand.I wanted to hold her hand back,but i don't have the courage to.and after the movie,she pretended nothing happen.So did i.Wasn't that sensative at the age.Yeah.that was how i discover my the other side instincts.

I feel used.

2008-11-02T18:47:00.003+08:00

oh man,i bushed!after running here and there from boon lay to CP.I got to know Louise a little well,but she's strict.okay,wo hen leeeei le,xiang yao shui jiao.Goodnights!

2008-10-31T01:13:00.003+08:00

1.I going back to work on the 7th and 8th,where i'm only left with 1 paper!Yeah!
2.I'm having sandwich training with mimie,i hope it'll be alright.I mean just like the way with Gopal,where it's fun and enjoyable.
3.I'm going to have long hair,ok,not really looong ones,but yeah,long hair.hahas.
4.I'm already making plans to slim down,where i gained a few sinful KGs during this period,and i'm bend on cutting down extra fats!
5.I'm going out with those ah peks and honqi on the 13th.It's like since long we've went out together,looking forward for this outing esp....WAHAHAAHAS.

That's what i planned to do within this holidays.More upcoming activities.

2008-10-27T22:00:00.004+08:00

When you needed help,you approach me.How about your dearest friends out there?Shouldn't they be like someone whom you choose to approach when help is needed?I'm just wondering here,alright.I'm not someone as essential as them to you,not that i'm inferior of that but definately,it makes me very uncomfortable for the fact that:Since they're your DEAREST friends,why aren't you approaching them?Shouldn't you be doing that?Yes,i've my way to make money,and that is through labour.So what?No big deal,ain't everyone is doing in this country?yea,that includes me.I'm not unwilling to lend you the money you need,but i still have to worry for my daily expenses.Especially i'll have to save and pay for my first module for poly courses.I have my difficulties just like everyone do,and i'm not the bank instant cash cheque ok?I'm not someone who can always withdraw endlessly from the ATM,unless my parents are the bank presidents and i believe you know that.What appearence may seems is deceiving enough.For you,i almost borrowed money from others.I thought to myself:Even if you're unwilling to pay up,take it as a christmas gift from me.You may not believe it,but ask Xuemin if you want.When i asked you how much you need,you just carried on with that explanation there,i already understood why you need the money alright?For god's sake can't you just reply the message directly,instead of saying this:I can ask my mom for help.So,the message you're bringing across is that:I can ask my mom for help,if you reject me.Then why bother to borrow money from me?hah!And i messaged you AGAIN,and you ignored it.DAMN,i don't like people who doesn't reply messages,and that's really a turn off for me ok?

I've tried my best to type this post in such nice and beautiful tone,appreciate it.

2008-10-26T23:07:00.004+08:00

what if one day i find you,and you just went away like others do?

Alright,i'm thinking of going to a church,better still to get baptise.Not that i look down on other religions,but after being into excorcist,and some of my beliefs in life was quite realated.I was thinking,why not?

okay,so actually i've been shooting down papers,and just three weeks more.Of course,I can do it!

So,i've been into Janice Dickinson Modelling Agency,there are cat fights,but most importantly the way the show is carried out where jobs of models are being exposed here.The way things works here and there.PRetty good show!And i'm sad that Stina and TJ had to leave.I was like 'hhuh?Why leave?'.Tj is just so.....Lucky dominic stayed on.hahhas.Anyway,you can catch it on the web.CLICK HERE.

Okay,if i'm not wrong,i'm not gonna celebrate CNY the coming here,either i'll be working,or i'll be overseas on a tour.

2008-10-22T19:56:00.002+08:00

ON hiatus!

okay,so actually i'm sneezing all the way now.I'm thinking of holding a chalet during january,anyone up for it?

2008-10-19T01:31:00.003+08:00

Actions determine words,and there you go contradicting it.I see how humourous you're trying to be there.

2008-10-18T21:49:00.002+08:00

okay,so actually i got around few minutes more before watching The exorcists:Beginning.Well,well.Too bad someone is studying now when i just called,which i actually thought of like asking thee to relax.hahas,well studious person.

okay,so actually i'm all so nervous for the coming chemistry paper 3.Oh my god!It's so freaking fast alright?

2008-10-16T23:11:00.003+08:00

So,i haven't been talking about this friend of mine like for some time.In fact,i gave her a late called-back today.I guess she knows who she is,and this post is dedicated to her.

In fact,i've never forgotten her existence in this world.Yes,she had been the one who actually tolerated my tantrums in 2005 where jealousy just gets the best out of me.Okay,i was quite elated and at the same time,puzzled why she had called yesterday.So,when i returned her call today,we really had a great chat.

It's been really a long time we had a chat with each other.Yea,caught up with some stuffs,and i could sense that she's really too stressed up for o's.Yea,perhaps i'm just too relaxed but well,i think she just needed some time to relax and forget about o's is here while relaxing.At least it helps.

Though many things happened,however,what has been done cannot be undone unless you reverse time,isn't it?May all grudges be forgotten,and let one friendship here start afresh.thank god for letting me recover this friend of mine,thank god for placing her by my side,and thank god once again to let me learn from her virtues.

Hope she could see this post.*Nevertheless,your photo shall be here!wahahhaas.*

Thanks.
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Actually there's another person who flew back to his country and MIA-ed without telling his pri school friends,and we care for him ok?hhms,if others don't,i DO!hahahs.

I didn't even know he flew off after a few days.Actually,some little things i'll never forget.From primary school,the first time we talked about his dog.You know that kind of sausage dog.YEa,and his sausage dog is very fierce.Whenever there guests,his sausage dog will bark at them.Worst still,even chase the lorry.hahas.cute and silly sausage dog ehs?

i would go and disturb him whenever i like,and he's like very violent when retaliating ok? T.T Imagine how much pain i've suffered?hahas,no lah.Actually,nice memories.hah!

So during sec 2 he transferred to our school.and yea!I was elated lah,though during sec 1 i've seen him a few times at the MRT station EARLY in the morning.So,i think i gave him plasters for his b'day or maybe i didn't?I've forgotten about it.Anyway,yea,but i know during one year when he was still in SG,he wished me happy birthday!Seriously,i was kinda taken aback! TWITS: ii duunnch noe he wil wiissh miie happii b'dae!He even intiate a handshake?Which is unlikely of others wishin me that year!MEMORABLE.and i'm gonna put his ~~UGLY~~ handsome photo here which i koup from facebook.

Well,glad to say i've found him in facebook!YEAHHH!!So,actually i didn't get to talk to him much but i want to talk to him very much ok?Because he suddenly went MIA!and suddenly let me found him.LOLS,like playing hide and seek.Thank god for letting him to be founded once again!

2008-10-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

oh my god!oh my god!I'm having practical tomorrow!Gosh!

2008-10-13T23:03:00.003+08:00

All shall end with a proper goodbye.I do regret not doing that to those who left.

2008-10-10T23:07:00.005+08:00

So,it's graduation day.I'm glad that i had my clique to press on with me.Really glad to.However,while i was in the hall waiting in there to wait for the entire thing to commence,a sudden urge of sadness overwhelmed me.As i saw parents were being escort by other fellow peers,and with them saying hello to their kids,i was actually hoping my family will be here,which i know they aren't.

So,there goes my desired graduation day.I almost cried,but for god's sake,i didn't.hehs.SO,here's some photos.

Since i've been keeping this all along,and we graduate already,Look!This is a picture of me and my ex-boyfriend.PErhaps it may gross you out,however this is a fact :).

2008-10-10T17:06:00.001+08:00

Hellos,my dear friends.I guess some of you may make some negative comments from what i've written.Of course,i've no regrets about it.Since it's the graduation day,i guess it's time to voice out what i've want to voice out in those days.You may think that it's worthless.However,i've spent time and money making it,appreciate or not,be it as you decide how much it's worth.HEre are pictures for you guys to look at.

2008-10-09T01:05:00.003+08:00

Well,consoles to my dearest friend out there.I know it may be difficult for you to not be so sad and cheerful in such a short time.However,take it as a lesson learnt,though with a heavy price paid.I don't think you're stupid,i don't think you're a lousy seller.Hey come on,look!How much you've earn within these few months?Look back at what you've achieved and stopped being so depressed for a moment,or maybe for the time being.Of course,i'm not gonna leave you in lurch like those friends you have out there,perhaps jeering and laughing at you.May it be the last good deed i'll do it and there goes with an end to my secondary school life.hahas.

2008-10-07T21:17:00.006+08:00

Alright!I'm super happy now!I wish to see Anand back in centrepoint!I hope he's alright with his healthy body.oh my god!!I miss his disturbings,his smile,his everything!hahas!Gosh,i'll pray for him,at least god wasn't that unfair.He once took his 'health' and job away,now he gave him hope to be 'recovered'.I really hope god would be able to give him what we wished for him.I was like:'i miss you a lot!'.I want him to be back,and may he be blessed with that simple wish from his colleagues like me!hahas!I'll be having long hair.hees!

I hope to see him really really really SOON!

2008-10-06T23:19:00.002+08:00

So,what if i'm gonna die one day?I was actually planning what to do.If i'm down with some type of sickness like cancer,or some other weird/unusal illnesses,i would not consider treatments,yea i know it's dramatic.I think dying the most natural way,is the best.

Things i would first do,was to thank and treat all those who cared for me these years.Definately credits goes to my mom and my friends who had been giving me support all these years.

Then,i would go straight to find people who pisses off me these days and give them a good tight slap,then walk away leaving them speechless.They deserve it for stepping onto my nerves.Especially XXX,no point dying without helping myself as well as others to revenge for what thee said.Don't think a tiger doesn't roars,it is an ill cat okay?!

then i would go on crazy shopping for feminie clothes,for people to look at me the feminie way.hahas,let their eyes shock till drop.Okay,i know it's exaggerating lah,but still yea.Something i wish to do before i die.

Travel around the world till i die.That's all.simple wishes ehs?

2008-10-06T03:13:00.004+08:00

ok,about today.I woke up at 2 plus in the afternoon and studied a little while,and slacked till i was being called to help out in closing.So,me and xuemin met up and reach CP at around 9.

XXX was unhappy to see us,because we ruined thee plans for getting OT!and i don't know why thee stubbornly stayed there till morning.CRAPS!So what if we come and it's of no use of help to you guys?as if you're useful at first.Everyone here is to learn,what sort of comment you're giving now,you'll get what kind of treatment you deserve.Okay,i'm in no right to talk about this,HOWEVER,if you're not happy with us,don't use others as your tools to force your way through,using other languages to complain to others.You're pro in other languages i don't know but talking about english you definately SUCK at it!!hHAHA!I'M MOCKING AT YOUR RETARDED ENGLISH!!I don't know why thee stayed there to do FL?Perhaps protesting,but please,it's simply too....By staying after (you) doing some unnecessary actions,is already a form of us protesting!and there goes your dignity being crushed!You deserve it,Bimbolic XXX!

Oh yea,when we reach store,i was taken aback!Lin Moi doing runner!Really shocking alright?!and DK,was in a huge mess,don't know which fella did it,thanks for doing up such artwork before leaving.Before you leave a station,it's like common sense to clean up and stock up before handling over to others or punch out.So irresponsible.Almost let the machine auto-heat.I think that person don't know what is the meaning of stock up,i guess.Everything also down.If don't know how to stock up,then use mouth ask,that's the function of a mouth.Or else you're neglecting your mouth.Don't know what the person is doing,slack until so hiong,everything use le,don't stock up.after that let the next crew who's taking over die.

Alright,so me and xuemin helped to close lobby with the help of gobinut!He's a great guy!JEga was actually saboing both of us...and bitchy gopal helped him.Auntie Geok Hua's mee or rice is forever so nice!Overall it's fun and nice!I'm hungry now.Waiting for MCD delivery to open breakfast then i'll place my order immediately.hehs.I'm having a mean mouth these days,well can't blame me as there's too many bitchy stuffs to talk about.hahas.

2008-10-05T02:35:00.000+08:00

Well well,talk about today.I had to settle some things at home,so i'm unable to go with those guys to visit nazurah for slmt hari raya!Sorry,i'll come one day.and yea,i went straight away directly after that.

So,work was actually enjoyable for me as usual.Somehow,the old feeling is back when i stayed with them till around 1 in the morning,of course not with XXX there.the feeling is just nice.

ok,talking about work,XXX was actually telling me this and that.And I'm wondering,does she know how bad she is,in terms of working attitude?I mean she's always talking about other's flaws,but what about her?Befriend with people who benefits her.That's what i think!LEECH!She think people like her so much for god's sake.hahas.

WAKE UP!

So,i just walked around the kitchen to acutally take photos with people who're working.Of course,i think i look mature compare to the past.Gopal was actually asking me whether i'm leaving MCD,because the feeling i gave was actually taking last photo with them.BUT,i'm staying in MCD!hehes.Here's some photos!

2008-10-03T20:52:00.007+08:00

ok.Talking about saturday,make me experienced many types of emotion in one go.I was like'oh my god',practically all day long.So,i studied at MCDcentrepoint on the 3oth in the evening till 1st Oct.Mind mind,my anger had been dispersed to somewhere which i'm not gonna tell you.hahas.

Anyway,today's the last day,so yea.We took group photos,of course the class is still as hot as ever,or am i getting fatter?Nevermind about that -.-''So,yea end of the day i took photos with most people who're present in the class.This is the group photo that we spent much effort in taking it,and me editing it.Memories of being in 4e with these lovely people.Some who love demoralising me and made me felt like shit at times,while some like to praise how good am i.Of course,regardless of what,i still thank them for everything.Thanks for the memories,guys!

2008-10-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

I'm having a mild headache now.I guess i'll update tomorrow.

2008-09-29T23:28:00.004+08:00

I don't know what to say for my life,definately not effort put in.Maybe once.I don't know.Ijust simply messed up my life.Thank god i did have a leaving certificate.thank god for him bestowing many things i needed at times.And thank god for being so forgiving.I'm not into religious stuff,but sometimes things that are meant to be,it's fate.

Whether you like it or not,people you meet in life come and go.You might say no,but real life situation says otherwise.Would you have a best friend at the age of 16,would stay with you and remain as best friends till 70s?Maybe,but at the slightest chance given.hahas.I don't know why i'm thinking so much recently.

Along the way,the people i met,regardless of irrtating,disturbing,lame,funny,emo or even those i dislike,i'm sure that their existence meant some purpose.We learn some things from them,of course unknowingly.Pick up skills that requires for life.

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So,enough for much.So,school was like,like that lor.BOring.Doing mock exams to mock at ourselves.And i'm glad that we're going to have a break on weds.So,tml i'll be out the whole night studying.Of course,i'll have ample rests before going out study or else i'll end up like some freaking convict who had pale face pale skin,heavy eyebags.What hell?hahas.

I'll be doing a home visit to nazurah's house for hari raya!yays.Maybe it's like a new thing to me,at least for once.

Oh ya,complains right now.I think someone is simply ignorant enough to demand things from others when it is kinda consider unreasonable.Can't you see that others can't stand the nonsensical stuffs you're spouting.Should i mock at your innocence or should i say you're simply too naive and over bearing at times.What a joke.hahahas.LEt's laugh.
HA,
HA,
HA,
HA.
I couldn't stand childish and nonsensical ways coming from you guys,IDIOTS!

2008-09-29T00:09:00.005+08:00

Aaahh,I'm bored here in the middle of the night where everyone is sleeping in their own cozy bed while i'm having a mild sore eye(hopefully it's not) on my left eye.Maybe let's pray that it has an impact,so maybe i am medically allowed not to go school.hehs.

BandCrazy is asleep,no one to keep me company in the middle of the night with craps and stuffs.Oh gosh,i'm just so bored!!When is DOLLS 4 coming out?I'm waiting for so lonnnnggg.Grr.What about Prince of School,direct translation from chinese because i'm just too lazy to look up for chinese characters.Damn,so slow!I need more English songssssZZX!

So,today i went out to study in BK with xuemin.had my lunch there and da pao curry with rice for dinner.I miss talking to people in the middle of the nighhhhhttt!oh yea,short of pictures recently,and i'm too lazy to edit and upload.that's all.

Irritated.GRRR

2008-09-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

Alright,i'm feeling quite irritated by somebody.Grrr! Even i wanna have a good chat with you is difficult.You complain my messages are emotionless,then i tried to add in more emotion ,you don't reply my messages.Next time i'm gonna complain more and more than you.wahahas.

Anyway,went out to study with daniel,xuemin and joanne this morning.Sooner or later i'm going nuts,and i can eat nuts.hahas.And i realise many of our school peeps are going there.hahas.Alright,no more extreme driving force,like F1.Slow and steady.

I'm still so irritated by that someone!GRRRRRRRRR!

missings

2008-09-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

Hellos,

I'm having a freaking headache now which started mild in the afternoon,and getting simply worst till now.What hell is it.,damn.Talking too much on craps.I guess I gotta find my results slip,couldn't find it after placing it in my bag.okay.That's so not ridiculous.I

What you may be saying is true,things contradicts.I don't think I have to go along with how someone works,especially something that is so not me.I'm a D,domineering.Be it,this or that.This is how and what happen.I don't need you to be feeling all-those-mixed-feelings together,but I just want you to reflect on what you did.I may be stubborn but I have my own principles,it's not as if one done wrong without reflecting,I could forgive with my hands wide open.That's not my principles.With a sorry that is insincere is equivalent to not
saying sorry.

Like what my friends around had been congratulating me about,I've attended school with full attendance of 1 week.I'm proud of that ok?and I miss colleagues of mine at cp,who're always fun to be with.Especially fighting and more gossiping.hahas.that's enough.hahas.

I miss you lots.

Just a random day

2008-09-25T18:39:00.002+08:00

Alright,talking about today,was a rather so-so day.Somehow people just isolated herself out of her way,no matter what we do.So,it's best not to bother her and let her carry on isolating herself.She got her rights to do so what.

Somehow people like Mrs Choo should at least do some good stuffs,no wonder her class is always so noisy and no one bothers about her.hahas.Serve her right for having such an evil mouth.

I miss you lahhhhhhhhhhhh.

hellos

2008-09-25T16:56:00.001+08:00

hellos.

Testing in windows live blogging session.and it works!

2008-09-23T23:10:00.005+08:00

Hmms.Come to think of it,bandcrazy is not replying my messages lah!
Anyway,i think having that nice impression in everyone's heart is good,however,some just simply take it for granted.I don't flare up doesn't mean i shut my gap at necessary times.

Seriously,for people who know me well.They always complain that my messages are emotionless,give them a kind of very stern feeling.But i'm always very chatty in front of them.Telling lame jokes like do mock paper to mock at ourselves,etc.When i'm in wrong,i'll admit it, and with one sincere apology from me.It's hard for me to change opinions to things i condemn.I have a very bad attitude,that's something for people who know me really well.

hahas,you hahas,but too bad lah.I don't think i'm in wrong this time .Somehow i find it funny why do people like to fabricate stories and twist facts as they wish to,when in actual fact,it did not happen?PErhaps suffering from hallucination.hahs,yea yea.Oh,have you not hurt someone else's feeling,unknowingly hurt him/her?You can deny that fact,but the hurt had been inflicted on.Yet,you neglect that.Should i say i must care more of your feelings??Then how about mine?What for comparing how pathetic each other can be right now?

You're not even reflecting about what have you done wrong,and with some reason that made me laugh off my ass.Seriously,so what if i used the word fuck on you?You've used it on me too,once.So,want me to help you recall your memory here?hahas,you should know it.And by the way,whenever i bear grudges,that is when people don't say sorry to me and being extremely 'polite' to me.

I've got the right to bear grudges and scold vulgarities when i like!

2008-09-22T22:35:00.004+08:00

Okay,thinking about work.

I wonder why the new ones come,the old one goes.It's like the attitude is very different compared to the new ones.they get to learn new stations,while the old ones remain stagnant,not learning stations at all.Especially kitchen.

Not only that,attitudes are very different compared when we first came in.When we first came in,we were like a bunch of shy kids,afraid to ask someone for help but only from our friends,in order not to embarrass ourselves.I last time even don't dare to change schedule can?What time work,then just come can liaos.Even last time ask for drink also don't dare,only until we're familiar with the managers then we ask.

Now,little things also cannot do.Don't like the station just say :i want to learn new things,then manager approve.In the end,everything also cannot do properly.Do lobby, messy.Do fries,down fries.Do runner,just blindly run w/o using eyes.Do counter,just blindly take order,let the runner run until die.Do DK,only know how to slack,everything also don't stock up.So where's the procedure?CYAG?Even if in wrong,also don't want admit oneself mistake.Only know how to bear grudges against other's scoldings,have you ever reflect what have you done wrong?If you said yes,that doesn't convince me alright.When a manager or someone scolds you,there's sure to be a reason behind it.You think people like to scold each other for the sake of scolding meh?In that case, all of those really need to be lock up in IMH for treatment.

Okay,people do suck up to others at times,but to certain people simply by calling others until like real brothers n sisters,makes me shivers.I'm not jealous about it,i've even got a 'father' there lah.ahahs.The question is:do you have to bootlick others to such extend?Reflect if you see this.

And one more thing,when the old bunch of us were new crews,we don't ask for benefits immediately.If manager reward us with something like ice-tea or what,then we take.Only until we're familiar witht them,then we take it.But now,it's different.People get so automated that something call self-service comes in mind.SITUATION CHANGES.

Same goes for people.I believe they'll change,but it's their choices to change for the better or the worse.One thing to suggest:MAybe we could have an exchange programme for CLs and some crews to learn cafe.Isn't that good?Understanding each other's work is a great way to learn difficulties and benefits from each other.

Some classics.hahas.