these 3 days ain't good for me.rather depressed.the valentine's day was wuite ok,just that the later part of the day,i got rather depressed and ate the chocolates people gave.and got a good nap that had a forgetting effect on me.its MS CHI CAO aka SGT CANDY TOH XUE NI's birthday.didn't really believe her at first,but after much convincing evidence,i FINALLY believed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAOCAO AKA CANCAN!!!

wednesday was quite a sleepy day.like what jervis wrote in his ACE tingy.he wrote that i'm SLEEPY.yea,i'm one sleep freak.anyway i was really damn tired after finishing my SS test and slept all the way till chem lesson.and chem lesson was like pretty BAD.

i was like slowly falling asleep when mrs choo was like talking all those lesson stuff,then she woke me up saying this 'michal,you want to sleep then go out the class and sleep.go now.'then i was like blur blur de,replied her ok.when i was about to stand,she said this 'you better don't sleep blahsblahs.'then,i slept again.she woke me up again.i slept again,and this time she WARNED me.i'm just so sick of teachers warning me this and that.its so freaking IRRITATING.

and today,was really a....i dono what to say.jus felt to many things.a moment,i felt depressed at the hall,feel like crying.then a moment,i felt feverish.then a moment things that are far more complicated needed to be solve.a moment we kana scolding.a moment where i was laughing like hell.a moment where i had a heartache.a moment where my spinal part hurts.a moment i feel like scolding someone with tons of vulgarities.a moment i got so damn furious and talking damn loud with those eyes saying 'i wanna eat you up'.a moment i felt apologetic.a moment where i felt tired.a moment i felt bonded.a momment i felt that we could make things right.a moment that i think we have what it takes to win in this FAC.a moment where i'm sure what i was doing.a moment i felt tired upon hearing my mum's voice.

just read the parts in bold.that's the important part.

i'm totally disppointed with you.i find you sucky.i find them better than you.they're more frank than you.they're not as fake as you.i find you insulting me.i think you did it purposely.i don't feel like saying halo to you.i prefer living in my own world when i'm not in my CCA.you guys don't get too much.what's the point of laughing at my FUCKING hair when we were no longer in the same school,as well as i don't know your friends.who you think you are as well as them.please get away from my life.I hate you.i find that you're just an acting in front of me,which i hate so.if you're not happy with me,just say it.i can take it as if you're just a pure stranger to me.my head is not for you guys to shit on.I'M NOT STEADING WITH NORVIN ONG JUN YONG.WE'RE JUST FRIENDS!

to myself,

decisions are hard to make,but we still had to make it.our life seems to ressembles a book.its just an high-tech book where no words are written,with only pictures drawn.be yourself.i'm getting myself back on TRACKS.