Midst of me.

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gosh,yesterday was the most tiring and terrible day in my life.

The news just hit me,i failed my english Essay.wth.English Essay failed = English fail.I broke the news to my mum regarding results.As expected,she asked me to go 4 tuition again.I don't feel like to,and it's a waste of money.

St john was infuriating.Damn.Well,i really can say i don't know how to control the sec 1s.and we had to even let the Sec 4s the take over during the P.T.but there's 1 thing i don't understand.why must we move in front when the npcc guys move.I DON'T UNDERSTAND.

Well,its hard to control a bunch of people.and we've tried so hard to make everything look alright but its still like SUCKY.the sec 1s are inco-operative.someone just like to have solo performance.tons and tons of things,and what's more we know our posts.yupps.rather saddening about that.

well,i just read a junior blog.and i kinda relfected upon what i did yesterday.for me,i know i'm not being really respected by my juniors long ago.I knew it,i know what it lies.I tried to be better towards them,be quite patient with them.

PErhaps part of the reason would be they dislike me cause for my own personal character.Like,I'm being straight towards anyone.I may be by blunt at my words.I would say i failed my subjects in front of them.Yes,i did all those.I sometimes even said vulgarities in front of them.yes,i did tried changing.I stopped myself from saying vulgarities.i stopped to be unreasonable.i tried not to be too hurting.

and i know i get downright extreme and serious with my training.PErhaps sometimes a bit sadist.I know that,but i hope you guys could understand it's for your own good.I expect the current Sec 2s to improve,the recruits to understand why would we be so strict.The Sec 1s,i must clearly tell you guys out there,the camp is much more tougher than this.PErhaps,if you were to know who were the instructors in the camp....

Well,for the Sec 2s,i know how you guys feel.When the current Sec 4s gave you guys for footdrill,you got the right feeling.but when it's the Sec 3s who gave you guys footdrill,something is not right.I could tell you something truthfully,when last year Sec 4s gave us command,we got the right feeling.but when its the current sec 4s,the feeling is wrong.Well,its hard for us to give you that kind of feeling.But we do really seek for your cooperation.

I've got nothing to say.that's what i think.

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