Midst of me.

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sch wad rather bad.i got emo,and tears just roll out of a sudden.Well,i find that the world is complicated.Complications sometimes makes things perfect,but i think its not.I went out of control after crying.I threw tantrums and i don't feel like speaking to anyone.

And the reason for being emo,is due to some things which i don't wanna mention.That made me so pissed to the extend i feel like roaring at that someone.Since you want to have it,then why should i bother to fight it with you,when you and i had different status now. And i lied blindly with the excuse to the toilet with a bad tummy ache.And with that excuse,perhaps person AB would thought that i don't like AB or sth.Which in fact,no.I'm sorry to show this kind of attitude,hope AB won't mind.I'm just way too pissed off to think.

and with that excuse,i saw victor sitting at the bookshop and decided to take a sit and chatted with him.Talking lots of nonsensical logics and chim-logy into him.He tried comforting me,thanks lots for doing that.But it didn't make me feel better but more to breaking down into tears.

After their dance under the sun,they decided to rest where me and victor were.Well,i must really thanks NI for covering up with the blind lie,and the fact that i was crying.PErhaps one of the reasons lies in listening too much EMO songs,and its due to the fact that i'm being bugged by personal stuffs,school stuffs,friendships.

I'm too bugged by everything in my life.sometimes,i would even find that having a dream during my sleep was hard.some things are just bugging me,i know yet i tried to escape.Even at times i would blame XB for it to decieve myself.But at times,the deceieving part just don't work.I want my family back,I want myself back.That's all i request for.

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