Complications in life.
What's wrong and right?
What's love and hatred?
What's porn and art?

Complications arises when minds get impure.
People too,can't be stainless from dirt forever.
We are used to live in a world of black and white,
so what will happen when white and black overlap each other?
Grey,an odd.
Accept it or not?

As though you thought you found a companion for you beloved pet,
but you didn't know that it would sing,
for the very last time,
before letting its kind devour itself.

Of course,mind me not but a penny of thoughts would be appreciated.

Labels: random

The day was jus so and all.Pictures talk at times.hahas.LAZY ME XD.

what do you want?yes,i did slap you.Do you think everyone can stand the things you spout huh?

you are a retainer.

wth.I'm not officially retained.and please,i didn't even provoke you in the first plaxc.I'm sick of everything.Come on,the room is mine,i don't have the need to let you use it for tuition.you can merely just use the living room as your place of study.I don't see any wrong in that.

And please,do you know i'm jealous of you?you'd always get the best.and me,what i get?I remember there's a year daddy and mummy forgot about my birthday,and to pleASE me,they asked soyen to give me $10 to spend.and you know what i got?i just got myself some chess games which cost like $1 each from a bookshop.and what you get?a tent which cost like $70++ and an ice-cream cake.I don't even get a cake lah.

when i was aged 10,they say i'm old enough,i should elad by example.But when you're 10,what did they say?they said you're still young and want me to help you with every perspective.fine,i accept that.

and this year,my art exam's eve,dad wanted me to teach you some ass maths problem at 11pm ++.i gladly rejected,and thus i am blamed for my selfishness.your work wad just some homework,while mine was an exam.

why are you always have the pirority to have everything?while me,i was treated nothing.

Labels: random

>went studying on 14 sept with boon keong,chee kwong and hon qi.MIRACLEOUSLY,i did like over 10 questions.sometimes,things aren't what they seem.hahas.

15 sept.
Met up with the group for breakfast.Waited for like half an hour for everyone to arrived.Ate mac,went to meet Candy at boarded on 138.Got some serious EMO bit.sianx,emo-ness getting quite often nowadays.Well,some of them noticed,and thought i was still dwelling over the hospital duty.

Well yes,i dwell on it during emo periods,but now i'v bowed my head to fate regarding this issue.I'm not one who's fatalistic.we waited for mrs peck to arrive and entered the zoo.Well,i was like some small kid,pretty excited.hahas.

and well,posted some pictures to do the talkings.More pictures at HERE.






We went to our destination,forest lounge!The guys went on with thir rehearsal,while me and candy were slacking all the way,or should i say i'm the one slacking.ahahas.cause candy was busy helping me and hong jun to pin on our badges.Thanks CANDY!



After the rehearsal,there was like an hour plus,so we decided to have our lunch?LOLS.we're big eaters!Ate,and we went back to EXPLORE!YAYS!i get to see POLAR BEARS!



Went back and changed into our full-u.Well,my uniform stinks like hell lahs,sprayed lots of men deodrant.well,pretty bored and too much formalities,just ain't my type.I went just to walk around the zoo ,or course with personal reasons.

MRS PECK was very lucky!She won a Philips video player in the lucky draw.Pretty good for her!

ATe and walked around.We went to fragile forest,and there was this zoo guy left a pretty good impression in me. Nice guy,his impression will always be left in my mind.Met up with honqi & gideon,and home-ed.



that's all for today!hahas.

I don't know.Intense disappointment and sadness.I really wanna go.or the lord there just doesn't allow me to go.Damn,i really want to go.the world is just so unfair.

I don't feel like continue,not in a good mood,grudges are just there.

MY DEAR GIRL!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Sorry girl,i thought your birthday is 16th sept.really sorry!i will bu chang you de!!!

there's somethings just been disturbing me.and i'm like expecting something to happen or what?Am i thinking too much crap?

Anyway,the previous post may be a little negative towards shu hui but yes,i'm treating her with a neutral attitude.I must also say,true friends say things you don't like.Get what i mean?I'm not against her or anything lah.



and pretty much,i'm having confidence for my A maths test.Yes,hope i did well.Fullfil the promised i laid down and work towards the goal!JIAYOUS!

I'm one lazy ass.

Labels: weird, yuiki

Let me finish all the quizes before getting the stuffs.hahas.you may skipped the quizes part.

Quiz 1:
Rules of the game:
Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.

1.I have no idea why comics touched me better than movies,but somehow people doesn't appreciate them.
2.I hate mensurations.
3.i think hitler hates gays and the retardeds?
4.Keeping my room messy is just a must thing.
5.Kayaking was fun,and the instructors are gentlemen.
6.I do not allow myself to fall for any boys.(they're BOYS.)
7.Wearing big shirts are much more comfy then those skinny,stick-to-skin clothes.
8.I'm plain and rough.
9.I hate teachers' a lot nowadays.
10.Little thigns pisses me off easily.

Quiz 2:
1.[ The person who tagged you is? ] Shu Hui
2.[ your relationship with him/her is? ] normal friends,don't speak much.
3.[ 5 impressions you have of him/her ] dancer,prefect,senior prefect,long hair,last year's neighbour in class.
4.[ the most memorable thing he/she has done for you? ]not really much that i could remember.
5.[ the most memorable she had said ]i don't want to be the bad person.
6.[ if he/she become your lover,you will? ]i would be hitler.
7.[ if he/she becomes your lover,things he/she has to improve on will be? ] she knows it herself,and i don't feel like saying it too.
8.[ if he/she becomes your enemy,you will? ]I pretty adaptable,doesn't mean i couldn't live.
9.[ if he/she becomes your enemy,the reason will be?]Definately,my character or the things i've said/done.whatever it is,there's a lot of reasons.
10.[ the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is ]stop being such desperate person.
11.[your overall impression of her is?]neutral.
12.[ how you think people around you will feel about you? ]Hate me,love me?I'm just a tomboy,how they think of me,i don't really matter.
13.[ the charasteristic you love about yourself is? ]being frank enough.
14.[ the characteristic you hate about yourself is? ]nothing much.
15.[ the most ideal person you want to be is? ]i just love the current self,why should i be the one who tops the world or anything?
16.[ for people that care and like you,say something to them ]well,thanks.

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okAYYS,for today,we went kayaking!But seriously,kayaking in the beach is far way better than kayaking in the some corner.But well,though its fun yet tough at the same time.I from bai bai become hei hei.

thanks instructors for these 2 days.and pretty much,they're fine chaps,hope they got great girls too.hahas.I'm pretty much burned out now,and my neck hurts!aARGHS!But still i don't regret going kayaking.Guess i would get the pictures from mrs peck.hahas.

i'm tired.byes.

oh man,today's kayaking was fun BUT was spoiled by some brats.man,i was pretty impressed by one of our instructors Zhi Hong.He's a pretty gentlemen type,i guess.He said this:

Him:no wonder girls don't like boys.
I was giving him a huh look.
Him:Cause they're boys.
Him:If they were men,they would definately come
down and help.

BUt my dear instructor zhi hong,pls smile more.cause you look like some devouring tiger waiting for its prey to appear.Nevertheless,Eugene (the other instructor) helped us a lot.Pretty sociable.Nice guy lah.

Well,somtimes we shouldn't be nice,cause people take advantage of our kindness.Yes,people are selfish,its natural of that in Singapore.BUT,shouldn't we have the mindset when to be selfish?Let's have cases to decide.

Case 1:When you saw someone about to drown.At the same time,you know how to swim and certified to rescue people.BUT you decide to just walk away cause you're
feeling bad after having a fight with your girlfriend or sth bad happened.

Comments:This is CALL SELFISH.Jeapordising people's life or making them
miserable cause of your own personal reasons.Come on,wouldn't it much better if
you gave them a helping hand when they're in need?The feeling of satsfaction is
way better.and please,if you think by just going down to the sea makes you dirty
and sandy,palau ubin's mud is even worse than now.Imagine i've gone through
sleeping under the rain in the beach with the basha NOT tied up PROPERLY?and,you
COULDN'T EVEN BATHE AFTER A DAY HIKING.Just a little ninny things make you BOYS
so winny?i wonder what's the world becoming.

Case 2:Everyone's in a concert of a famous star.the concert starts,when the star
gave away products or posters to the fans.Of course the fans would be selfish
enough to snatch for it,regardless of what.

Comments:In this case i think being selfish is rather ok.You get to keep what the idol's thing forever!so why not,be selfish for the moment and get stuff for life.and it's not sold in market.why not be selfish for this tiny one time ehs?

And seriously,i think we,ST JOHN's did the school proud.It's the overall that makes us so bad.PLEASE,the most premier and prestigious unifrom group as well as the emperor's boat,have some level of maturity.Don't be so childish lah.

I'm just so pissed off acting like idiot always helping people do things.Aarghs,my hand feels numb.I guess muscle ache is bound to be.sianx.sleep~~

Labels: kayaking

man,life is bored.
anyway,i've found my beloved weighing machine.
its on the chair.

pardon me for not blogging nowadays.
but i should say life is pretty boring.
tomorrow's will be a lonely time at woodlands lib studying.

sian ar.free please drop by and visit me.

My beloved weighing machine was being stolen.OH GRATS MAN!
Who the EFF stole is lahs.
Shitty man.

HOLIDAYS ARRIVED!

damn!i'm so bored lah.I want to sleep now.
i'm so looking forward to kayaking,and i got some feeling that the monthly period would come.
holy shit! if that happens.

I'm so bored.

guess i should update.

Teacher's day celebration.
I guess its my first time being a backstage crew.
Totaly fresh to me bahs,cause i was part-time hired by ed.LOLS.

well,i didn't enjoy most of the time during the actual performance.
cause i'm totally into my results.
Hell shit.i got LAST of the class.nvm.
I almost cried on the spot.
i didn't want to be one cry bucket of the day.

Well,people around me do realise my mood was pretty bad.
So,they comfort me.
Ke hsiang and the other guy touched my head.
thanks.

Went back to primary school.
I began to act like some siao girl which is so unlikely of me.
went to buy my lunch and home.

I went back home and break the news i got last.
I got laughed at.
Flared up and shouted like there's no tomorrow.
Slammed my door and ate my lunch.
That was the most horrible lunch i ever had lahs.
was crying while eating.
I feel so hurt.

Rested.

that's all i gonna update about recent stuffs.


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I know i shouldn''t hang on to all the joys i've had in the past 2 years till now.but yes,i cried upon watching this video made by ed.



It brings back so much memories.I remember the last day whereby we had our final class gathering.We played like there was no end.Till Ms See came down and drive us away.I hugged Miss See and told her:"Miss See,you're skinny.".Being the usual her,she said:"Michal,you should consider slimming down."

But still,Its memorable.HAving such sucky results made me feel guilty towards her.I still remember having all those nights out at Song Rong house to make gifts for her.Tiring yet at the end,satisfaction was attained.

I miss my old place.I miss the laughter.I miss everything i had in the last 2 years.Those joys and fun i couldn't have it now.All i could do is suppressed myself,i couldn't mixed well.I don't want to be like them.I don't want to be teacher's pets.I felt so useless.I'm on the verge to give up.If life was a little more beautiful,it wouldn't be called life.Just let me get over this hell..

Labels: hurt, memorie, Results, teacher's day