Midst of me.

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guess i should update.

Teacher's day celebration.
I guess its my first time being a backstage crew.
Totaly fresh to me bahs,cause i was part-time hired by ed.LOLS.

well,i didn't enjoy most of the time during the actual performance.
cause i'm totally into my results.
Hell shit.i got LAST of the class.nvm.
I almost cried on the spot.
i didn't want to be one cry bucket of the day.

Well,people around me do realise my mood was pretty bad.
So,they comfort me.
Ke hsiang and the other guy touched my head.
thanks.

Went back to primary school.
I began to act like some siao girl which is so unlikely of me.
went to buy my lunch and home.

I went back home and break the news i got last.
I got laughed at.
Flared up and shouted like there's no tomorrow.
Slammed my door and ate my lunch.
That was the most horrible lunch i ever had lahs.
was crying while eating.
I feel so hurt.

Rested.

that's all i gonna update about recent stuffs.

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I know i shouldn''t hang on to all the joys i've had in the past 2 years till now.but yes,i cried upon watching this video made by ed.

It brings back so much memories.I remember the last day whereby we had our final class gathering.We played like there was no end.Till Ms See came down and drive us away.I hugged Miss See and told her:"Miss See,you're skinny.".Being the usual her,she said:"Michal,you should consider slimming down."

But still,Its memorable.HAving such sucky results made me feel guilty towards her.I still remember having all those nights out at Song Rong house to make gifts for her.Tiring yet at the end,satisfaction was attained.

I miss my old place.I miss the laughter.I miss everything i had in the last 2 years.Those joys and fun i couldn't have it now.All i could do is suppressed myself,i couldn't mixed well.I don't want to be like them.I don't want to be teacher's pets.I felt so useless.I'm on the verge to give up.If life was a little more beautiful,it wouldn't be called life.Just let me get over this hell..

Labels: hurt, memorie, Results, teacher's day