EAR MUNCHIES:JUST SO YOU KNOW
AUTHOR:JESSE MCCARTNEY



I shouldn't love you,
But I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
But I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop
Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to
Be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to have the feelings?
And look the other way

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop
Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go. (Just so you know)

This emptiness is killing me
I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there
Just never spoken
I'm waiting here
Been waiting here

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
(Whoa, Just so you know,
Whoa, Thought you should know)

I tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

Just so you know

Labels: song

okayys,just finished picking schools for my brother who keep on dragging which school to go,and he was like slacking while me and my dad were looking through maps seeing which schools are good.Damn FAT PIG~!

Anyway,I just updated my comics blog.yea,will soon be uploadind the CATALOGUE,so that you guys can place your order rents.Charges and Rules will be stated.CLICK HERE TO VISIT.

and well,one miracle thing i did today was to do my maths homework where tons of stuffs i've forgotten lah,at least i still tried my best.

Ohya,i finally found my key under the carpet at 3.o4pm.WTH.

Labels: comic rent, keys

Well,today was quite exhausted?cause i cried,partly was because i felt injustice,and also EMOness.It's getting out of hand,should i say.haiya,anyway i still had some fun ;D.

and well,aaron caught me looking at some guys,Oops!And another fact,i'm working at 9am tomorrow,and now its 1.o6am.WOW?and there's another day before he leave.Sad ar!



I'm afraid,that's why i'm amoured.
but in the middle of nowhere,
i just felt so exhausted and stopped moving on.
Cause that's the time where i shed my tears away,
and move on...

Labels: Aaron, cried, random

I'm so gonna miss him.
who's gonna listen to my complains?
who's gonna let me gossip like some market auntie?
Who's gonna be there with me when i'm in need?

He's going back to his homeland le!Even a simple meal i couldn't afford to give up my time for him?Aarghs!He's just so good,so nice and understanding.

I will miss you de!Very much,i guarentee!Cause even now,i'm having sleepless nights and missing phone chats with you!

Labels: missing you

trust was already misplaced.What's the point of being family when we're just related because of blood ties only.Trust,care,all those vital things needed to make one feel family warmth were all gone,what's the point?

just hope i die sooner.in an accident or what.Instant death is way better rather than slow and laggy death cause it makes one more difficult to leave the world in peace.

OKAYYS,so i'm gonna spit out all i have to say.

MONDAY

All of us went to Sheng Shiong Supermarket and bought bbq things,though it's like kinda rush,but still nice.In the end,all ended coming to my house.hoho.made all those stuff and interaction thing.yea,pretty good.

oh yea,we bumped into Cheng Hui and Wei Liang selling their vouchers.

TUESDAY

BBQ,yeays!met hui chin,candy honqi together to take bus 966.But anyway,we were scam-ed by the busdriver who didn't know which stop to alight if we were going to east coast.FUNNY ASS.and we were like so cookoo walking around like mad.WOW?!bumbed into Wei LIAng,selling his voucher again.

oh,and candy and honqi almost puke.CANDY got bus-sicked and puke,honqi got so disgusted with the otah smell that she almost puke.okayys,we met earlier than the guys but reached there later.WTH?

anyway,i finally knew how to cycle le!!YAYSness!me and hui chin rented bicycles and reached there first while honqi and candy had to walk after the long search for east coast.that's so EEyer.but still we helped them with their things.and well,we played poker on sand.WOW?!okayys,and started to bbq-ed.

Wanted to take group photo,so i dugged "SJAB ; ) ".pretty nice ehs?candy's sittiing like a mi le fuo.hahas.

After phototaking,we all went to sit on the sea wall or something?Well,Jun Fei went halfway down,and squat there,look so emo.So being one good photographer who grasp good photos at such good atmosephere,i clicked it.and also,i edited it!hehes.

the ORIGINAL PICTURE:


the FIRST EDIT!


the FINAL EDIT!


we walked all over,even played snap with the girls.Indeed,East Coast is a good place to do something nice with your lovers,especially in the nite.hehes XD.Also,clicked some good pictures & edited it.not gonna put the original pics,cause i'm lazy to,so if you want the original picture,ask me for it =D.








and Well,i camwhored jsut a tiny weeny bit.If i don't,i'm not MICHAL alrights.

Soon,me and huichin went to take a quick shower,cause i'm scared being alone in the toilet after they left.so,being such good souls,hui chin accompanied me to bathe,while candy waited for us outside.the boys too,took their shower.but they meet up with some toubles,thus was much slower than us.

In the night,we played murderer,and tiill the later part,some played taidi which i'm one idiot of it,so might as well not learn and play.This bbq is just to ENJOY right?hahas.and i started chatting with hong jun,all of a sudden,chee kwong that gang ended their game and ran over like DESPOs to where me and hong jun was sitting.Both of us were like o.O hahas.

After the girls left,all that was left was me and the 5 guys that stayed overnite.Well,it was quite ok with them,they didn;t do anything or so.We all just did the most romantic thing couples would call,stargazing while sitting on the seawall or something.the view was just so magnificient!COUPLES,TAKE NOTE OF IT!HEHES.

Well,we just sat there for quite some time,and too observed the tides.Its more of geographical thingy,but still,it's a nice one.too bad,i didn't get to snap it.Blame me for not having one quality cam!hahas.but the guys took care of me well,thanks guys =D.

Well,we went back to the shelter,and chee kwong started sleeping followed by boon keong.Damn hilarious.chee kwong was snoring like no one's business,and his snores was so irregular.Perhaps that's what makes him so uniques and cute?hahas.so me and the other guys just walk to and fro to mac and our shelter.times just flows,and soon it's about time we pack up heading to mac for breakfast!but before that,the remaining 4 chatted bout supernaturals and our beliefs,had a great chat anyway.

So,me and hong jun left first,when we were about to reach the bridge,jun fei called.
JF:you got leave your things behind?
Me:i don't think so lei.
JF:but i think is girls de,cause all of us check le.
Me:then i think you go open the plastic bag and check,got bra de then is mine.
Call end---------

so along our way,i was freezing like hell,cause of the wind that blows of often when it's about to rain.Well,ate breakfast and slept till 7++.Well,we took bus 38 to suntec.Well,it was like so damn weird when people are with their office uniforms while we were in casual wears going home.funny.but still,i landed home safely and pigged out ftom 12++-8++.
that's aLL!

Labels: bbq, overnight, St john

NOT YET

still,fucked up.i just hate ppl like that luhs.working ain't fun anymore!!FRUCKS!sianx.

Running away from problems sometimes do make one feel better.
and i'm doing so.
I don't want to have empty promises,
leaving me waiting for nothing.
it just look so obtuse.
Things aren't back as before.
i really miss how things were back then.

Labels: probs

Disorder	Your Score
Major Depression:	Moderate
Dysthymia:	Slight
Bipolar Disorder:	Extremely High
Cyclothymia:	Very High
Seasonal Affective Disorder:	Slight-Moderate
Postpartum Depression:	N/A
Take the Depression Test

Once again,i believed i'm having depression.
Getting emotional nowadays.
I even asked someone whom i don't really chat up this question:What's the diff between emo and punks?
I don't feel the same as i did.
I doubt things easily.
I even thought in the future i could be one 'hitler'
or even just someone small who doesn't even get her priorities right.
what am i becoming?

Labels: emo, random

OH,CRAP!
SPEECHLESS
SHOULD I FEEL SOMETHING?
I SHOULDN'T REGRET ABOUT WHAT I DID ABOUT JUST NOW.
DAMN!

good pathetic,relationships are just so over now.and crap,i feel so numb.Perhaps its just natural towardS some doings.and please,let me CLARIFY things. .
1.When I said about the new system planning began,i ONLY said that "IT PROBABLY WOULD BE PERMANENT."
2.the REASON i stopped teaching was i felt very DEMORALISED,UNsuitable to teach under the condition i'm in.
3.I DID NOT SAY I WAS CHASED OUT INTIALLY.BUT LATER ON,YES.
4.I DID NOT SAY I WAS PISSED WITH THE SEC ONES ON THAT DAY ITSELF,JUST WAS TALKING ABOUT CRAPS AT THE END,SEEING IF THEY COULD SURVIVE IN THE NCO.THEY PROVED ME RIGHT.

stop putting words in my mouth,just simply feel damn disgusted.
if you like to do that,doesn't mean i'm fond of it.
you have your own stand,i have mind.
but of course,its obvious..

Labels: speechless