you claim that i've changed but have you ever tried understanding me?Do you know you made me felt so hopeless,maybe it's better to be jumping off the building,without a goodbye.At least that will leave you a regret.A regret that you never tried understanding me.

You claim that you trust me,yes.I didn't answer your calls,or reply your sms,because i've set silent mode.you simply just assumed i went for work.and you even forced me to admit i'm in wrong when i didn't did.I did not went to work,you forced me to admit i went to work.you even went to call up store to check.

I respect you,that's why i told you when i was going to work,yet you made me felt like some ass,you don't even trust me.and you said working in mcd lead me to what am i into this state.HAve you ever thought,those relentless amount of moeny you gave was just only to satisfied that empty heart out there.You and your son made me felt like an idiot,always.

YEs,i declare here i like him,i really like him.I know the advice you gave meant well for me.However,you started getting racist and came to check up on me like i'm your prisoner.Asking me who i go out with,and you always assumed that i went out with those indian friends of mine.Do you ever make an effort to communicate with me nicely?Without using all those racist terms?

How far do you want to go?to drive me up to my insanity?to drive me to the hell,that's what you want right?I just didn't want to put away book that were under the living room table,and what you did?you threw away all those books that i used my own money to buy.You just simply just threw away my books.Even some that were new and untouched.

I screamed in agony in my room,you came and scolded me asking what i want,Have you ever thought,my heart was torn into pieces when you threw things i treasured.I just needed you to be supportive,even you don't agree with my decisions,i don't need you to mock at my stupidity.

Do you know what's my favourite colour now?No.That's orange.Do you know i completely lost my dignity when you read my diary aloud to ang wei shan?Do you know how humiliated i felt when you and your dearest perfect son ganged up to laugh at my mistake.It's not once,it happened a lot of times.

How low do you want me to stoop?How much times do you want to step on my dignity,making me feel like one sore loser and that i shouldn't exist in the world.Do you know that i really look upon you and respect you a lot,but your actions and words,hurts me really a lot.

You may not understand why i chose this,and i explained.But did you ever really listen to my explanation,no?Just condem me as you would like.I'm condeming myself,i'm gonna earn income for myself.