I don't know.Some how,i had a lot in my mind currently.Things that weighs me down,for what i'm doing,for what i need in life.

O' levels.
I've been having this stupid self-dicipline that goes off at times,which made me dread my current situation.I'm afraid of O' levels.I don't know if others of my age is experiencing this problem right now.However,i'm just so tense about this exam that is approaching,especially when teacher stress on it's importance with such strong sentences like:Your O' level certs follow you for life,wherever you go,definately people will see your o' levels cert.Okay,it had an impact on him that sets me go worrying if i can do it.Then i'll start regretting about sec 2,why i didn't do well for EOY exams,then i'll relate that i deserve to be in such class i detest.With so many people whom i consider to be irritants,empty vessels and them being so bossy simply made me hate it even more.Then i'll relate to the matter where i start enjoying the period where i always skip school,and how addictive it is that made me continue till now.Then,i'll relate back to results which i had achieved in sec 3,practically i had last throughout the entire year.It's not shocking,i simply deserve it.then i'll relate to the matter of the form teacher which totally gave me a lousy impression throughout sec 3 year till sec 4,which i realised she actually cared about me even i'm such a eyesore in her eyes.Yes,what a failure in life i am.I'm getting all over paniky because of the o'lvels results that i'm gonna achieved.Am i going to be such a disappointment like i did in Sec 3?I don't know.

I even told my brother this once:You don't be like me,so useless.Must study hard,choose the subjects you like and score well in future,so you can choose which path you want.At least you get to choose,it's better than landing up in choices people don't like.Right?

McDonalds' Job.
I intend to stay on and pursue the position i want.Many people will be like advising me to quit and go for a well-paid job than mcd,but to me the fun of working matters most.Of course,i may be unpopular among people because of my attitude,or due to other reasons.Like others,i have ambitions and goals for this.I don't wanna give up like what i did to St Johns.I've struggled and hanged on,however i let it go at the end.Well,it's my choice.I do regret it,but what can i do?Since it's already the past.might as well leave the regrets behind and do well for other things eh?hahas