Today i did closing and i'm pretty tired.ZZzz.

okay,talking about life nowadays is just so TIRING!I got to wake up early morning around 5.30 and prepare myself for the course and sleep in the late night to iron the uniform.Then i would drag myself to the course itself.The first and second day i was quite ok with it.However,on the third,it's where i got the shoutings from XXXXX lew.

The sight of him just made me cringe like hell after that.I could actually tremble like some crazy upon seeing him,though just distance away.It's ridiculous i know,but well it just couldn't be helped.The phyhchological effects yah?Okay,so he screamed flat on my face,and i was so damn nervous for my footdrill,plus all those nervous panic attack and there goes my footdrill.What hell.

The next day,i wasn't feeling too good,thus i decided to seek a doctor for advise.Well,who could be well when you felt like puking almost everyday,no apprtitde no matter how appetising the food is.and worst,you couldn't even rest or sleep in class and had to keep both heavy eyelids open due to lack of sleep.So,i went to consult a doctor,and he said i was under stress,lack of sleep etc etc./yeah,so finally i get to rest really well.

Not until i saw XXXXX again,and the sight of him just made me......(Fill in the apporiate words).PErhaps i'm too sensative or what,but when i was learning tying knots,i guessed he noticed i was shivering and asked to turn up the temperature of the air con?Maybe,i'm just thinking too much.I don't even know what's up in his mind anyway.Well,he's someone i think had some emotional strings going on,just made me curious about him?I don't know,but the thing i must remember:he's not friendly.

Yeah,so after today the POC,i didn't stayed on for a photo shooting,because i didn't want to.As someone insignificant as i am,i don't want to make myself so visible at times,that's what i thought.So,after the so call lunch which is somewhere around 11 plus,i just went off and took train to somerset.On the way to work was like so malu.

I was actually sleeping when i almost leaned onto the old lady seating on my right,and she was really a nice lady in fact.She asked if i'm too tired after working and didn't mind what i did to her.The other was that when i crossed my boots,i accidentally hit onto her claves or her feet,i was like kinda drownsy,and she didn't mind.Before i left,i even said sorry to her.Imagine in one day is like super duper malu.

So,i punched in early.and you know what?I was super duper tired.I almost slept during working hours,it's gossiping that kept me going on.Of course,i'm not that obtuse to talk about what i gossiped lah.Then some fagging pendek keep on scolding wang rui for no reason,and i'm just pissed off.He kept on coming to our area and make stupid comments as if he's the crew leader.Simply pisses me off can?And he kepy on scolding wang rui for no good reason.What right do he have to interfere and scold people.Com'on lah SHORTY!LIKE YOU WILL PROMOTE!

PEople commented i was really happy working today.May good days last long,whereas CLT course don't arrive soon.

I dunnccchh liikke trouubllesoommme pppeeepppo.GRRR!

Labels: mac, ncdcc, pissed, work, XXXXX lew

As a mother of mine for 16 years,have you ever understand anything about me?I don't wear dresses,you forced me onto it?Until you had no idea how to force me onto it,then you stopped it..Then now,whatever decision i've made,you only know how to criticize this and that,where is the support a mother should give a daughter?I've been with you 16 years,yet you still forced me onto things.You detest the things i adore,but have you ever tried to understand why do i like it?You would always nag at me,but do you ever understand why i prefer do things certain ways?No,you never do.All you do is to criticize how wrong i were,emphasize how stupid i am.What good do i have in your eyes?Nothing.I'm just some worthless piece of shit to you.

What did you said when i asked you to come for my graduation ceremony?All you could say was i was a disgrace to you and started blaming on my friends.I always thought a mom should be supportive regardless of what their child is doing,yet you made me felt the other way.You made me felt bad.Really rotten to the core of myself.

What am i to you?If i've hurt myself,you won't ask until i tell you so.

Whatever i do,even if i didn't even do it,you like to accuse me and scold me like some dumbass.I don't see i'm in any wrong,even if there is that is to talk back to you.I don't see how and why should i be malign by you for doing something i've never done.I hate explanations,and i doubt you fucking knew that.So,you just kept on ranting about your fucking business about what things should be done and not to be done.And ask me to shut up because you couldn't win the fight.you're just a loser who just likes to complain.FAGGOT!

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Ok,i'm so nervous for the last paper!and that is tomorrow.Don't think your eyes are actually fooling you,i'm really alive here and blogging at 4.46 am in the morning.That's insane ehs?

I'm gonna have a busy schedule on the 11/11 and onwards.I'm just so nervous,excited what's coming up right after 11/11.HAHAS!

Men nowadays are sucha jerk!

I cut my hair le!I bought new specs already!YAYS!

Someone is always there to make me look dumb.This time,i hope that person will crash sooner or later.but i'll be better in one way thee never will,that is 良知.Although i really have a bad mouth,i'm not someone who is that schememing.Thee actions just make me cringe,but still congrats thee for whatever thee should be happy over with.

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I chatted with 2 of these friends where i didn't really talk to during o' levels.We do share some common interests,which is kinda like unique.In one way or another,hahas.They are funny.LOLS.

So i actually asked some people around to buy RMCC glove!hahas,though kinda expensive.I believe karma comes one way or another,children also benefit from your donation!So,please donate ok?!hahas.

so i watched the NAtional Treasure,and i didn't really went to sleep.And that movie definately makes me recall of my primary school friend of the name Jacqueline Lim.Alright,she just make this movie session very memorable.OKay,perhaps only me?

So,we're actually watching this movie with a bunch of friends,if i'm not wrong is the library gang.I sat beside her in the cinema,and was too engrossed watching the movie itself.Until a hand sneak by from my the seat on my left.I turned and look at her,she was there still concentrating onto the movie.Well,that really caught me by surprise and definately a great turning point to my thinkings at that point of time.

She actually made my heart skipped a beat,kinda like a fling.Okay,i know you must be finding it kinda disgusting for a primary 6 girl to feel this way at that point of time.No one actually hold my hands besides pri 1 and 2 where teachers ask you to hold our partners hands.Yeah,that's why i had such kinda thing.

So,i did what normally couples do.I held her hand tightly.Throughtout the movie is like this.Until i received a message which spoils this.I had to let go of her hand.I wanted to hold her hand back,but i don't have the courage to.and after the movie,she pretended nothing happen.So did i.Wasn't that sensative at the age.Yeah.that was how i discover my the other side instincts.


I feel used.

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oh man,i bushed!after running here and there from boon lay to CP.I got to know Louise a little well,but she's strict.okay,wo hen leeeei le,xiang yao shui jiao.Goodnights!

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