It felt so wrong It felt so right Don't mean I'm in love
tonight
Monday, November 17, 2008, 11:06 PM

As a mother of mine for 16 years,have you ever understand anything about me?I don't wear dresses,you forced me onto it?Until you had no idea how to force me onto it,then you stopped it..Then now,whatever decision i've made,you only know how to criticize this and that,where is the support a mother should give a daughter?I've been with you 16 years,yet you still forced me onto things.You detest the things i adore,but have you ever tried to understand why do i like it?You would always nag at me,but do you ever understand why i prefer do things certain ways?No,you never do.All you do is to criticize how wrong i were,emphasize how stupid i am.What good do i have in your eyes?Nothing.I'm just some worthless piece of shit to you.

What did you said when i asked you to come for my graduation ceremony?All you could say was i was a disgrace to you and started blaming on my friends.I always thought a mom should be supportive regardless of what their child is doing,yet you made me felt the other way.You made me felt bad.Really rotten to the core of myself.

What am i to you?If i've hurt myself,you won't ask until i tell you so.