If it was you,and you told me that.How would you react?Shocked?

You come and go as you like.It's your freedom to do so,i know.But have you thought of my feelings?You come and just stop by for a little while,made me felt downright pathetic.I don't want to be that girl standing by the side of your life,let you stop and give me that kind of sympathy.I don't want that.

You leave,just like a gust of wind.A goodbye would be fine,but you just left like this once more.Without bading a goodbye,you walked out of my life.I can't stop you,for i'm no one in your eyes.

Please,i just need you to make the decision.If you want to stay,then make me feel cherished.Don't treat me like some rubbish.I'm a human,and i have feelings.I do feel guilty for throwing tantrums at you at most times.I made you suffered in silence.I know how it feels.If it's revenge you want now,just leave me alone.

Don't make me crave for you once more.Don't make me stare at my handphone just for your message the entire day.Don't treat me so nice.I mean it.

Labels: random, you

hi helloos.

I'm just so effing bored here.

On christmas,i worked.

I had a quarrel with Mr Chua because i was feeling down after being screamed by ROBERTdog that my counter was short of $13++,and Nor was telling me not to worry,and reassured me.I just told Nor,if he wants to give me a warning letter,just give.Basically,I'm already kind of sick of the DRASTIC changes in the store and some stupid actions of some stupid REPTILE,a warning letter is nothing to me now.If you want to know what happen throughout and how that fucking ROBERTdog scolded me,ask me personally.

okay,i miss Mr chua.I so damn regret typing that message to agitate him when our relationship is kinda like on the rocks already?Whatever you call that,dude.I want him to be that Mr chua,he's now ignoring me.Gosh!i'm just too dependent on him for companionship.

and there's this crazy customer came and scold me for no fucking reason simply made me so pissed.He's so damn rude.You're just paying the price for like $6++ and you expect quality service,what crap is that?Then what are those kind of service you want the restaurants you visit and pay $100++ there?Damn that stupid morpeng customer.I don't think if you have any rights to fucking leave down this sentence:'If she don't want to serve me,ask her jolly well not to work here.'CRAZY FAGGOT!

Oh!and Raji gave me a gift which is some sort of like a baby.I don't know why he gave me that,however i do appreciate his sincerity in it.Thanks Raji!

Mr chua,i want to talk to you asap!

Labels: christmas, long wei, mac, pissed, raji, ROBERTdog, work

Okay,Finally the NCO course ends!I think i had developed a connection between the cadets who're in the NCO.Although they owed me like about 3.4litres of water throughout the course and did not complete it.But who cares man?!The course is over.


Alright,these cadets are my very first batch of cadets i come across in my NCDCC life which is like super short!I'm glad that they passed out and finally showed the least minimum amount of initiative which developed during the course(although XXXX said they had zero initiative,but i thought otherwise as they went through the course)!

Seeing these cadets pass out makes me think of the 4th CLT Course,and i do really owe these instructors a BIG thank you for guiding my way through both courses.Definately,Sir Jonathan(someone whom i really look up upon),the AFIS esp,Shahir and Ren Feng.I never thought once that in my life,that i would ever stand here at this point.thanks!

Okay,here are some pictures i've took with them,and the most funny thing is that people said Jia hui looked like my sister!Hahs!Do please comment on it.




LAstly,MERRY XMAS.

and i do want you for my life,not only christmas.

Labels: christmas, missing you, ncdcc

sometimes,it's just too hard to get concnerned and to be concerned.

okay,i'm back here ALIVE and i POP-ed!Yeah!Well,it's been like 1 week i've been back home and blogging!hahas!

Okay,so i actually enjoyed my days at HTA,and most importantly i really had made many friends during the stay.Well,at times we do quarrel,however the times we had together had bonded us.I'm glad that i get to know you guys.

Thanks for that someone to actually made me motivate through the course,you're my target.i'll make you lose your stand and unit one day!Await the grand day for like 5 years later.Don't laugh and just wait!See who will be the one making the last laugh!HAHAHAS.

Well,actually I think i really need to thank a lot people,whom had made me to go on this far.Especially someone whom i'm really grateful to,he almost OOC-ed me at the beginning of the camp.He shouted at me countless times,and he tried to make me reflect when i'm really depressed about the campfire thing.I do really look up to him.biggest thanks to him,that i am who i am now.Moving on towards my goals for the future.

OF course,someone who recommended me in,assisted me and made me felt better by talking and finding out what happen during the course.Well,A big thanks to you.A turning point,which i never ever thought of reaching upon this stage.Thanks,a lot.

Not leaving out my most supportive friend whom always keep in contact with me while i'm away for the stay in and my course at CDA and HTA.

Thanks!

Labels: jasper, pop, xue min, XXXXX lew

hi hello,it's been some time since i've blogged.So,mainly i'm quite busy attending the course.and i saw MR YEO SONG RONG at HTA!Hahas,ok.So,lessons sometimes were like dry,hoever jokers are all around causing laughters.I don't know but we still owed the instructors around 400++ push ups.That's a lot eh?YEs,it is.

Somehow,i find XXX pretty nice,thee is not so heartless and the way thee do things really do make me give thee a lot of respect.Maybe i'm overly sensative or what,but it's like sometimes thee tries to help me a lot,especially the coping up with the pace that is going on with the others.Like i said,I may be oversensative.Surprisingly,sometimes i find thee kinda cute and funny.In like a few minutes,thee could be like someone to pacify young kindergarden kids,after that thee could change into someone totally different,shout here and there.Thee doesn't make me hate punishment at all,if thee's the one commencing it.LOLS.I mean who likes punishment right?I'm like some gundo saying i like punishment indirectly.FREAK!

For today,i was really touched by the moment when we had to celebrate shafiq's birthday.I don't know,it's something we bond together,or perhaps not?I don't know.I just had this feeling at that very moment,and it disappeared after that.LOL?!and that was the time i felt XXX was really good.I think after POP,i want to take pictures with XXX.I guess he's like camera-shy or something?I don't know.I guess i'll try my luck for....

Aww,and i miss working with everyone.I don't know.Cafe suddenly so many people pop out,and i was like:O.ok.(Interpretation:What the hell?)How to accept these changes?I don't know.By hope or by crude,i must make it work!Gosh!

Looking forward to my pop and SJ chalet,and perhaps other things!
Ending here!BYES!

Labels: mac, ncdcc, work, XXXXX lew