There are many WHAT IFs and I DON'T KNOWs currently for my life.

1.What if i don't get into SP (MARITIME TRANSPORTATION MANAGEMENT or MARINE ENGINEERING )?Too many people are like going there?I'm afraid.

2.I don't know whether it's the right time to get myself involved in a relationship,which the previous one end up like some disaster.It's too fast,i know.But,am i mentally prepared for one again?

3.I don't know whether to stay on with this job.Somehow it seem crap to me.I'm sick with the people who once arouse me with their great personality,makes me want to hang out with them.Their actions really make me felt disgusted,their words made me cringe at their ugliness of human.This is the real society,i know.It's just....I'm speechless.

4.I don't know what i'm living for.The existence of mine is just a minor subject to the round thing we call it 'the EARTH'!Wow!People around me were so inspired by one thing or another.They were so excited when they told me regarding it and there they go 'hey,i was like so .......' and on they go.I would there daydreaming (mostly)about how life would end,what are the factors that would be present,a good goodbye bid?I don't know.When people ask me to be careful when I jaywalk,i don't seemed to care compared to the past.Death is just nothing,what lurks behind the cause of danger is huamnity.IT's something whereby black and white doesn't exist,only grey do.Can you be a good guy forever?

If life is like shit to you,compare to those whose lives are worst than yours.and at least,i get to be fed and has a house to stay in,like a puppet being pampered.Hahs,how well life is?

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